Chy'Raq

Chapter 18~Its Not Enough

"It all started when I found my boyfriend: Tre'Kell that's his name, butt naked with two girls in his bed. This is the point where I lost it because I risk my life for this man! and I felt like he just took a giant shit on me, so the darkness literally consumed me and I started to beat the shit out of him to the point to where he was hospitalized, so shortly after that I went to the club and my step sister friend Kayla went as well. As you know I was a little tipsy and she ended up giving me head. I actually cant blame myself for being drunk because she gave me head again at the fair. I also had sex with a guy name Tyshawn on some encounters and I just feel so disgusting now because believe it or not I was a virgin before I met Tre so he was my only but not anymore as you can see. I just cant help to feel like a hoe now."

I looked at Khenan and to my surprise he stared at me with non judging eyes. He just nodded his head slowly. He invited me to his house to just talk but he kept prying into me trying to figure me out and I just gave up and spilled everything that happened. 

"Yuh reach yuh breaking point an yuh broke. Dats understandable." He said. 

"Yeah but I think now I'm a hoe?" I said unsure of it. 

He laughed at me. 

"Yuh only had two sex partnas in yuh life. Yeah yuh defiantly a hoe." He said in a sarcastic tone. 

"Well if you count Kayla that's three."

"She only give yuh head dat doesn't really count truss mi Brooklyn yuh no hoe, an the fact dat yuh feel so guilty proves it." 

I stared at him not fully believing his words. 

"How come you don't think Im a hoe if your saving yourself?"I asked. 

"Ah I'm saving myself for love. Da beautiful side of da relationship not  di pleasurable side." 

"So you not a virgin?" I ask stunned.

"No an mi not ashamed." He said with a smile. 

"How many?" I asked curious. 

"More dan yuh fi sure." he said. 

My eyes widened.

"Well that makes me feel better." I said smiling. 

He chuckled.

"I'm glad mi luv." 

I stared at him this time I was trynna figure him out. 

"Why you always calling me love? I'm not telling you to stop because its cute, but It just make it sound like I'm yours."

He smiled widely making me automatically smile. 

"I just say it outta passion to people. Mostly to beautiful women." He grinned.

I rolled my eyes knowing he was referencing me as one of those beautiful women. 

"Thats great to know." I said. 

He grinned. 

"So you trynna take me to Jamacia with you?" I ask. 

"I wud love to but I haven't been to Jamaica in sum time now." 

"Why is that?" I asked curious.

"Its just sup'm I haven't had time to do. I do howeva make sure mi family receives funds from meh every month." 

"Your family not with you?" 

"No only mi an mi bredda. Mi mada an three sistas still in Jamacia." 

"They want to come here?"

"No there happy there. Jamaica's there home. Ill just like fi visit dem more often."