Just another guy G.D.

Chapter 16

                                           Veronica Jenesis

  Grayson Dolan is in love with me. Isn't confessing your love for one suppose to be a happy thing? I can't get up, why does my heart hurt, so badly? Why do I feel so sad, yet tears don't come down to take a little of the sadness away? Why can't I hate him? And why is everything a question?

I'm suppose to hate him, he broke my heart, right? I fought every urge in my body to grab a bat or something and go to his house and knock him out, or something. (Or something)

I'm angry at myself for ever saying yes to such an asshole. But you love him.

I do not love him, not one bit. No you do love him.

Why do the girls date the guys that break your heart?

I really don't want to go to school, I don't want to face everyone, I don't want to see Ethan, because it will only remind me of Grayson. As a matter of fact, I don't want to see the old Grayson.

"Veronica, why aren't you out of bed?" My brother stares at me in disbelief.

"It hurts." Is all I say, before pulling the blanket over my head. I like the dark, no one can see how you feel.

"Are you on your Carrie show?" My brother laughs. I hate that his laughing.

"I can't go to school today." I mutter.

"You have to." He matter of factly speaks.

"No, I don't."

"Yes"

"No"

"Stop being a drama queen and get the fuck up!" My brother gets angry. My brother has anger issues, if you haven't noticed.

"Scream at me again and I swear I will-" I stop myself, before realizing how much of a different person I am being.

"I'm sorry." I pull the blanket down to see my brother look at me confused.

"What's wrong?" He brother sits at the edge of my bed. No Grayson use to sit there..

"I'm single!" I try to act as if it's a good thing.

"I'm single." I repeat, realizing what I said. My heart takes it all in and I feel a wave of pain going through me.

My brother quickly wraps his arms around me, patting my back. "It's okay Veronica, your going to be okay." Do you know that feeling when someone tells you that it's okay and you realize how not okay it is? Well if you do, then you may realize how much it triggers the tears.

Tears stream down my face, "It's not okay Jonahs, I'm in love with him."

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After a while of thinking, I decided I need to go to school. I might feel like a mess, but with the power of makeup, a nice outfit, and food I won't look like a mess.

Before going to school, I went to get a large coffee. I didn't sleep much last night, because my thoughts would not turn off. I might be a little late, but the year is almost over and apparently my relationship is over.

Once I get into school, I look at my mirror and give myself a long prep talk. "You are beautiful, you don't need a man to make you happy.." I sigh and take a long seep of my coffee. I take a step out of my jeep and I feel a wave of stress, looking at school. Eh maybe I should go home, I do have the heart broken virus. I get back into my jeep and start it. I get a message and look down at my phone,

Ethan: Hey wya, I really need you here today.

Damn you Ethan! I turn off my Jeep and this time actually make my way into school.

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"Hey you haven't been talking much, what's up?" Both Ethan and Abi nudge at me. I keep trying to distract myself; eat my lunch, check, extra notes, check, laugh at dog videos, check.

"Just a little tired."

"Why isn't Grayson here today? And your brother, he was in such a pissy mood." Ethan kept questioning.

"His your brother, you should know why he isn't here!" My sadness turns into anger and all I really want to do is hug Grayson.

"Calm down, Vero. I get it you and my brother are arguing, but trust me, he needs you." Ethan hugs me, and Abi joins in on the hug.

  "We broke up." I whisper as a tear falls down my cheek. The more and more I say it, the more and more it hurts. Maybe I wasn't supposed to be with Grayson.

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Distract myself: My key goal right now. Work, work, clean the house, do homework, fill out applications, and more work.
The days have been getting easier for me, as it hurts less, because I haven't seen him not once.

I haven't seem him in the hallways, nor at lunch, but I now his there. Jonahs tells me that Grayson went to his old ways and that his always distracting himself, as I am. In that way him and I are very similar. Life is full of distractions and if we continue to let it in, we forget about our surroundings.

Prom was coming up and guess who was going to go alone! Yes you guessed it, me! The only reason I'm really going is to dress up and to not regret it later. Ethan said he would gladly take me, but I refused, because well really I had no reason. I was sad to see Ethan and my brother leave next year for college. I was depressed to know that Grayson was leaving as well.

"Veronica someones here for you." My brother quickly closes my door and I break out of my thoughts.

  I walk downstairs and see Abi waiting impatiently. "Hey girl, let's go prom shopping!" She grabs my hand pulling me upstairs with her.

"Get dressed, I actually have to tell you something." She jumps on my bed and lays flat on her back.

"Okay what is it?" I walk to my closet and pull on a maxi dress and slip on some sandals.

"Hear me out." This is going to be bad.

"I never told you this, but I went to a party." I roll my eyes and sit on my bed as I make a bun.

"That's not the bad part." She nervously laughs. "I saw a really cute dude, and I was like, man I want some of his popsicle. Let me remind you, I was drunk." I laughed at her.

"Well I started talking to him, but I didnt clearly remember who I was talking to and next thing I know, I wake up in a bed, completely naked and afraid." Where is her story going?

"I didn't tell, because I was ashamed and it took me a while to figure it out, but I know who I slept with." She tenses up and holds her breath.

"Just tell me Abi!" I shake her playfully.

"It was your brother."

Wait what?