Just another guy G.D.

Chapter 19

                                          Veronica Jenesis
The only thing worse than being in deep sleep and letting time pass, is being able to hear everything and not being able to respond. I can feel time passing, people growing more impatient, and people slowly losing hope.

It's not that I want to stay in a coma, but deep down inside I'm scared to actually face reality. I don't want to see my injuries, because I sure can feel them. There's apart of me that doesn't know what to do with Grayson, I love him, so much. I'm terrified to wake up to the same world that I fell into a deep trance.

Continously hearing my mom cry, Abi cry, even Ethan crying hurts, so bad.

"So I told your father about you being in a coma and he didn't take it well. He has been trying to get in contact with your brother and your brother doesn't want to. I think Jonahs scared and I get where his coming from. All this time I have been so hard on Jonahs, I had to realize that his literally never had a man to guide him. A woman can only teach him, so much. I know sweetie, you would hate me right now for talking to your father, but sometimes they need to be forgived. Now I'm not saying I would ever love him like I once did, but he is your father. He wanted to come and see you, but I just don't know.." My mother continues holding my hand. Truth be told I want to see him. I want to see who he is and ask him so many questions.

A bit of excitement runs through me.

"Oh my goodness, your hand twitched Veronica!" My mom gasps and quickly lets go of my hand, touching my face.

"Can you hear me?" She whispers.

Yes I can hear everything. I can feel everything, all the pain, but not just pain, I feel love.

"Please if you can hear me, twitch again, or something." She loses all hope when my body stays still and leans away from my body, or at least that's what I feel.

"Please Veronica.." I can hear her heart breaking.
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"Hey pumpkin, a lot of people keep asking about you at school. It's funny, because people only ever worry when they can physically see you in pain. Nobody cares how one is hurt mentally, because that's the worst pain. I'm fighting for you, Vero. I'm fighting for myself, because I need to be a better person. I haven't smoked, or drank in 2 weeks. School is almost fucking over and I have to prepare for my future. I've been thinking about it for awhile. I want to build this big warehouse slash gym. Motivate people to have a little fun and it doesn't have to be by doing drugs and partying. I don't know it sounds dumb, but I have been saving a lot of money for it." I can feel his hand playing with mine.

He sighs, "I want you to help me though. I know with your artistic view you could really make the place look cool. I know you're going to wake up. I can feel it, it's just a matter of days! I'm not giving on you one bit. Your always fight for people, always give people chances, and no matter how bad they treat you, you try your best to treat them nicely. I will always love you, with every inch within me. I've never been the guy to think about a future with a girl, because I never thought I was going to have one. I know that we are both so young, but I only imagine a life with you. It's so fucking crazy to say, but it's true." He rests a slightly heavier on my stomach. Possibly his head?

"Please wake up, pumpkin. I need you, like I've never needed anything in my life." His voice cracks.

"Can you hear me?" Everyone keeps asking me the same question, as if I can respond.

"Please." Is all he manages, before he weeps. I've never heard Grayson cry once since I've been in the coma.

I need to wake up! I can't hurt all this people, my family.

I need to think of the good memories, think of wanting to wake up to see Grayson's face again, to be embraced by him, to see his sadness turn into happiness. To forgive my brother and tell him everything is going to fine. To hug Ethan and Abi, to be there for Abi in her tough situation. To talk to my mother about everything and anything. To be able to walk, to be able to move my hands, and most especially to be able to respond.

I don't want to see darkness anymore I want to see the lights.

"Shit man!" I hear Grayson shuffling in his chair.

"Stupid tears won't stop coming down.." He whispers.

I want to wipe them away.

I can feel my heart fasten under me, as if it was about to explode in my chest. And I heard what I never wanted to hear, my monitor beeping loud.

"Doctor help!" Grayson is gone and in to fill the room were nurses.

"Come on baby girl, you've got to fight!" One whispered in my ear.

"Did you know hearing is the last sense that worsens when a person dies, so if this poor girl heard you that would be bad Ronda." A male voice quickly pounces through my ears.

I've been hearing perfectly? I think my body is not hearing me when I say I want to wake up!

Wake up!

"Come on. One, two, and three!" The male voice counts down, I can't feel anything anymore.

My ears start buzzing for an exact of 30 seconds. And then it stops and I hear nothing.