Just another guy G.D.

Chapter 15

Grayson Dolan (SURPRISE!)

I'm in love with Veronica. Then why the hell did you break up with her? The thing is I can't admit it. Here's the thing, everything I ever really love is taken away from me. I know it sounds stupid, but she makes me as happy, as my dad made me. Fuck, not once have I worried about sex in a whole 2 months. She has me wrapped around her little finger. I don't feel the need to party, to get fucked up. She's my own personal drug and everything about her sweeps me off my feet.

"Why are you breaking up with me?" Her sweet voice pounds my head.

Does it look like I have an answer?

"I can't hurt you." I halfly tell the truth.

When I found out that I was in love, I kept ingoring it.

Love is a fucking war zone, and I don't want it. When it comes to Veronica though, I want it so bad. I had these weird dreams where she literally repeats how in love she is with me. Now that's some cringy bullshit.

My thoughts are interrupted by her laughing. I noticed that she always laughs in a stressful situation.

"You don't want to hurt me, well this hurts. What you couldn't wait for sex, so now your throwing me on the curb?" She thinks this is about sex?

"Veronica listen to me, everything I love is taken away." I finally confess. When it comes to Veronica, I can easily be myself.

"You do it to yourself." She points a finger to my chest.

"My dad dying, wasn't my fault!" I get angry.

"Ethan said he left?" She looks down, she murmers a sorry.

"Yeah he left my family, and then left this world." I could feel tears pricking. Gray stop being a pussy.

"People leave Grayson." She tries to wrap her arms around me, but I move them away. There she goes forgiving me, when I just broke up with her and screamed at her. Hell she makes anything hard, she's to forgiving for her own good.

"And how do you know? Your life is as close as perfect, your relationship with your brother and your parents."

"My dad left me too, my mom over works herself in place of my father. You know nothing, you never ask." A tear escapes from her beautiful eyes.

"I'm sorry, see I'm not good enough for you." I stand up. All I do is hurt her, always bringing my dad into everything.

"Your scared of people leaving you, scared of commitment. Yet your leaving me, if you leave me right now, then I will never forgive you!" Her voice rises and I could hear her heart breaking.

I'm an asshole.

"I love you so much, that's why I'm doing this. You deserve someone better, I was selfish asking you to be my girlfriend." A tear falls down my cheek, if I wasn't pathetic enough.

"Let me take you home." I don't want to leave her at the park by herself. She nods and gets up, walking to my car.

The car ride was akward, tell me something I don't know.

Before she left she took it upon herself to throw her ring at me. Resulting in me getting 10x more sad, but of course it truly was my fault.

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"Hey hit me up with your finest weed." I called Nate. Guys don't smoke it's not good for you, it's only good for me. I stared at the ring, it was supposed to be a promise. A promise that I could easily be myself around her. Where I could tell her how I felt and I knew she wouldn't make fun of me for it.

"My man, right on my way." Thats why I like Nate, he doesn't ask questions.

A couple hours later I'm in my shed getting fucked up and I feel like shit, but I'm not complaining.

I think I'm gonna ditch school tomorrow, read a little to get my minds off of things, drink a little to not feel the pain.

The more and more I think, the more images of Veronica pop into my head.

*Flashback*
"Don't you hate the beach, it's literally a big puddle of pee, unknown creatures, maybe dead people, and chemicals." Veronica lays on my stomach as we look at the stars.

We talked about everything and nothing.

"What's your worst fear?" I laughed changing the subject.

"Getting my hand shut on by a car door, or a car window."

"Serious." I wanted to know if she thought about scary things, like death as I did.

"I'd say dying before my mom does. Were all doomed to die, but I would hate for my mom to see me dead." She seriously answers this time.

"And you?" She looks at me, her beauty is incamparable to anything.

"To love." Is all I say, before grabbing her hand and falling asleep on the roof.

*End of flashback*

Now that I realize my biggest fear was losing her, but then again I did it to myself.

What a stupid bastard I am.