Two steps into this party and Lauren already regrets going. Why did her jealousy have to get the best of her? She hated parties, and to make it even worse, she hadn't even seen Danielle the entire night. She downed another drink, she didn't even want to remember this night.
People talked to her but she couldn't register what was happening or what they were saying.
Outside, that's were she should go.
When she got there, she spotted a familiar looking body. She clutched onto her.
Danielle turned around when she felt two arms grabbing her from behind. She looked confused as she saw Lauren laying limply in her arms. "What are you doing here?" She questioned.
"I'm just having fun".
She threw Lauren over her shoulder and quickly said goodbye to Jordan as she carried her upstairs. They found an empty bedroom and locked it. Danielle threw Lauren on the bed and looked at her. "What have you done?" She sighed.
Lauren just stared at her.
"This is not you, you don't drink", she said with a stern voice and sat down on the bed.
Lauren mimicked her and crawled into her lap, pressing kisses to her neck.
"Stop whining", she said.
"Lauren, you're drunk".
"So?" She said as she pulled her shirt off.
"Stop it", Danielle yelled as she tried to pin her hands down.
Lauren struggled, "you're no fun", she said as she pulled her hands free. She played with the hem of Danielle's shirt, before pulling it off as well.
"Lauren", Danielle tried, "Lauren listen to me". Danielle was struggling to say no to her, she'd break soon.
Lauren just shook her head.
"Baby", Danielle tried.
Lauren looked up and blushed.
"Hey, c'mon", Danielle said in a soft voice, "you know you don't want this".
Lauren looked into her eyes.
"Let's just go to sleep yea? We're both tired".
It took some time, but eventually she laid down. Danielle wrapped a protective arm around her, listening to her soft snores.
The next morning was a mess, Lauren was frantically running around, trying to find her stuff and get out as quick as possible. She couldn't believe herself. Had her jealousy gone so far that she started forcing herself onto people? She had to go, this was just embarrassing.
When she got home, she threw her phone somewhere and crawled under her blankets, she wanted to forget everything that happened yesterday, she felt disgusting.
Her phone went off, again, and again, and again. It was a constant chain of texts and calls. She'd read them another time, hopefully.
She stayed in bed for 2 days, before starting to feel a bit better.
She picked her phone up and checked her messages.
A few from classmates asking for homework.
A few from her mom, asking why she didn't come over this weekend.
Most of them were from Danielle though.
"I don't know how much you remember but I promise we didn't sleep together if that's what you were thinking"
"I don't know where you went but I hope you're okay?"
"Lauren please talk to me?"
"I'm worried"
"Lauren say something, this silence is torture"
"Just tell me anything, even if you want nothing to do with me, tell me, it would hurt less than this"
"I'm assuming you never want to see me again"
"Thank you for everything then"
Lauren started bawling again, she fucked up so bad, had she not been so stupid, had she not gotten drunk, had she not caught those stupid feelings, this wouldn't have happened, they would've been okay. She wouldn't have lost a friend. But no, as always, she had to ruin everything. Had to let jealousy get the best of her.
She promised herself that she would never catch feelings again. Not that that was even possible, Danielle would never leave her heart.
