The Second Time Around (Ongoing)

Chapter 4

Alone

Nakaupo ako sa pinareserve kung table para samin ni Kevin para sa lunch naming dalawa.

Kababalik lang niya galing Macau, he stayed there for 3 weeks?

Sobrang kinakabahan ako sa gagawin ko ngayon, paano? Paano kung siya yung piliin niya hindi ako? Kakayanin ko ba? Kakayanin ko bang mawala siya sa buhay ko? I did give him everything about me. I just can't lose him so easily, because it could kill me.

Nagulat ako nung may humalik sa pisngi ko kaya napabaling agad ako sa taong 'yun.

Si Kevin pala, umupo na siya sa kabilang upuan. Ngumiti siya sakin kaya napangiti din ako ng pilit dahil hindi maiwas sakin yung mga nakita ko sa letrato. Him kissing with another girl.

Tinigna niya ako ng mabuti "Are you okay?" tanong niya

Tumango ako "Yes, I'm fine."

Tumango din siya "It seems that you lose weight love, did you eat this pass weeks?"

Napakamot ako sa braso "Uh, yes."

Tumango siya "Hmm, I see. So how was the preparation?"

"Well, it's quite smooth as ever. Y-you how's M-Macau?" tumingin siya sakin at nakita ko sa mukha niya ang pagka ilang sa taong ko

Tumingin siya sa ibang direksyon "Well, Macau is still Macau nothing change" sabi nito

"No, what I mean how's the business you were talking?" tanong ko

Please, don't lie. Say the truth to me Kevin, please!

Napakamot siya sa noo niya "Well, okay lang naman. Nagawan naman namin ng paraan yung gustong baguhin nung owner ng building" hindi ko maiwasang masaktan

He lied.

He did.

Why?

Why do he have to lie to me?

Does he still loves me? Or he don't love me anymore.

Hindi ko namalayan na may tumulong luha napala sa mukha ko kaya agad ko 'tong pinunasan.

Lumapit agad si Kevin sakin at lumuhod sa harap ko "J-joy? Why are you crying?" tanong niya

Tinanggal ko pag kakahawak niya sa kamay ko at may kinuha sa loob ng bag ko at binigay ko 'yun sa kanya.

"What is this?" tanong niya

"See for yourself" sabi ko

Umupo muna siya sa tabi kung upuan at binuksan yung envelop.

Nang-laki yung mata niya nung napagtanto niya kung ano yung nasa letrato na 'yun.

Napatingin siya sakin "Joy I can explain" sabi niya

"Go ahead"

Yes, I'll let him explain because that's what I deserve.

"S-she wa---" hindi ko siya pinatapos mag salita dahil sumagot ako

"She's Jaime, I know Kevin. She was your ex-girlfriend no she was your first love" sabi ko

Hinawakan niya kamay ko "Yes she was, but... It was before love, dahil ikaw na ngayon. Ikaw lang, wala ng iba." sabi niya

Umiling ako "But why did you kissed her if that's so?" tanong ko

"We were drunk that time love, we have a small party because she was the owner of the building we were going to made" sabi niya

Umilimg ulit ako "It's not an enough reason Kevin, even if you're drunk or not, you will not kiss her because you know that you have a fiancé... Kevin I'm your fiancé, I'm not only your girlfriend, I'm your soon to be wife Kevin!" sabi ko habang umiiyak

Nilagay niya yung noo niya sa noo ko "I know, I know. That I know it was a mistake, and I'm assuming you it won't happened again, I promise. I'm sorry, please forgive me." sabi niya

Dahan-dahan ko siyang nilayo sakin at tumayo sa inuupuan ko "I can't forgive youright now, it's still hurts me, but I know soon I will. But it doesn't mean that our wedding is cancelled, it's still on the same date. We'll get married next month, for now I just need to heal this small irritating feeling I have. And please don't stay in our condo for now, I need to be alone." sabi ko

Kinuha ko yung bag ko at tumalikod na sa kanya pero hinawakan niya kamay ko "Joy please" sabi niya

"Please, respect my feelings as well, Kevin, let me understand it first. I do not want it to grow, let me cure it. It won't last long do not worry." sabi ko at tinanggal yung kamay sa kamay ko at umalis na sa restuarant

He explained to me everything, so I need to understand and process everything.

I just need to be alone for now.