it just hit me that we might never be together again.
and the funny thing is,
it hurts me so much because
i used to think you'll be mine somewhere in the future.
i'd fantasies about out lives together
that we'd grow together
that we'd have more happy times
but that's not going to happen.
and that's a big slap of reality to me.
i think what hurt the most was that
so many people saw it coming,
and the only thing i've ever wanted you to do was prove them all wrong.
but you couldn't even do that for me.
