this took too long to happen.
and it's my fault because i held on way too long.
i've hurt people i cared about and it's not your fault. but i blamed you for everything because it was easier to hate you for leaving and hurting me.
i messed up and made some bad choices
but i did them all because i thought it would bring you back.
i know that now
and i know you're not coming back
and i'm okay.
but just know that every time i see you or hear your voice or have someone mention you're name
my heart with both break and skip a beat
because that's just how i loved you.
i may never understand why we couldn't work out but i do understand that this was supposed to happen.
i finally let myself have closure.
even if you were never the one to give it to me.
