just brain things.

daniel aka da neil.

Hi -grboiyg.

Warning: the first parts of this is written a long time ago so keep that in mind

The 29th of July.

Today is your birthday. Today is the day you turn 15. Today is the day you can fuck older guys legally in Sweden.

Congrats.

You are now halfway to 30 and a quarter to 60.

You're getting old.

I thought I'd tell you why you're so awesome.

Let's start from the beginning.

I first met you through some comment on your books.

We didn't talk much.

But then you suddenly asked for my kik.

I panicked tbh.

Firstly, giving away your kik is something only dumb shitheads would do, no offence.

Secondly, random dude asking for your kik equals old paedophile in his late 60's.

And lastly, he's going to be disappointed once we begin texting.

But I obviously gave you my kik because I'm a rebel against myself and a dumb shithead and because why not.

When you sent the first message I was on a school trip, had already cried on the bus and was depressed as an ostrich that just realised it will never be able to fly.

I don't remember what you sent but I got really happy.

He actually texted me?

He did.

We were quite awkward and we sent like 5 texts in total.

But I was really happy and I want you to know that.

A few days later we talked a bit more and I was awkward as hell but so were you.

Then you randomly sent a gif (or was it a picture?) of Hansol to me.

And the war started.

Hundreds of Hansol and Yongguk pictures was sent which resulted in me having 500 photos of Yongguk's pretty face on my phone. (Still have them)

I think this was the point where the awkwardness lifted a little and we just spammed each other with pictures and gifs.

I was again really really happy.

After a while we started to talk for real.

Idk what we talked about but we were the masters of awkward conversation openings.

You helped me a lot.

Texting you made me happy, still does.

I'm extremely happy we still text.

I feel so blessed I met you and that you're actually still texting me and that you say you like talking to me too ;-;

You're seriously the most wonderful person on the planet.

There's these moments when I'm scared, lonely or sad (or everything at the same time lol) and I just text you and you're so kind and nice and amazing and understanding and helpful and I love you.