just brain things.

svt album.

hi.

I got this urge to buy one of seventeen's albums.

They are so pretty.

I didn't expect myself to cry.

But guess what?

I'm crying.

I want one.

So. Bad.

I want one.

But I'm scared??

I can't get one.

My parents would allow it, probably even buy it for me.

But I'm scared to ask them??

Like I can listen to them on spotify all I want and they'll probably think it's unnecessary to buy a cd, since I never use them anyway bc I have spotify???

They'll probably understand when I explain that I want the album because I just want it. But I've never just wanted something without any reason.

They'll also probably ask me if I'd use it, if I'd look at it everyday for a month and then look at it once every month for the rest of my life.

And yes I'd probably do that.

But then they'll ask me:
Would you hide it?

And hell yes I would hide it every single time someone comes over.

And that's one of the biggest problems, I think.

I don't want people to know I listen to kpop, or more like, I don't want people to know that I've kept it a secret for years that I listen to kpop. (I'll try to start fresh in my new school and stop hiding it but there'll be people from my old school and i want to cry but I'm already crying)

Idk.

I want one so bad.

But I feel guilty and I feel sad and idk ):

I probably won't get one anyway so this is a waste of time haha

I'll just keep watching album unboxings on yt and cry bye