just brain things.

school tears.

There were so many people and I was so uncomfortable and my friends kept touching me and talking to me and I started tearing up and I panicked and ran out of school and started crying and went home and now I'm skipping the rest of the day.

And my dad went to Skåne which is really far away and he won't come home until Friday night and I miss him already and I wish I could just stay home and never go to school but that's not possible and I want to find friends that I'm comfortable with but I can't and I only see my brother on some lunch breaks and I want to stay home.

I want to go back to my old school and I want my old self back but I can't and I just keep crying.

And I've met my non-school-friends quite rarely lately and when I actually do I don't feel like they like me as much as before and I'm probably just paranoid but I feel like my parents and my brother are my only friends outside of the internet but I can't be with them all the time and my brother will move out eventually and I'm scared.

I don't want to go to school tomorrow.