Journey down Lisa's mind

Ending Psychotics misery

I think Psychotic has been through enough
And she saw it coming
The actions
The feelings
The sudden friendship
No she'd never
Dislike you for what you did

She saw it 2 months in
That something is bound to happen
Bonds are meant to be broken
Our relationship is bound to hit a rock

Yeah it happened
You let go of the rope
One you held on for 4 months
Leave me to drown in this ocean
Yes again I say pain is nothing new
At least it never was
And it never will be...

Some even ask how I do it
And I just look at them
Allow the story in my eyes to unravel itself
For no words would ever describe my soul

I lost my belief in something
They all know not how to describe
But you
You reminded me what it is
Or at least that's what I keep thinking

The voice in me screams
But my face tells no story of it
For it knows I been through enough
And instead of showing what you just did to me
It calls upon the numbness of my physical appearance
And a state of no emotions inside
A side of me
Only a few people know.

This being in me telling me not to worry
For it consoles me
In all my worst moments
While I sit in a place I call home
The same room that's heard all my silent cries
And has seen all my rivers flow time and time again

It screams for me to not worry
"Focus on your main Goal" it tells me
"Forget about all these distractions,
They just there to push time"

Last night I spoke to her
The same night you tore me to pieces
She asked me to silence
The voice that speaks
Truth alone
She mentioned it causes me to give 50% of my feelings

But I choose to do that
For I keep remembering what happens when I give my all
So I'll let it console me
When the world chooses to
Bring me down
And yes she'll stay as the one
Who knows every detail of this being...

But I guess it life
That's why I say
I am strong
I am wise
I am worth beyond a thousand daggers deep
And I can't be perfect baby
Coz nobody's perfect darling
And no no no
Ain't nobody in this world
Like me😊