Journey down Lisa's mind

Written Thoughts

Take me with you...

Watch me smile
Keep my strong girl cover on.
Always pretend it wouldn't hurt you
When really it sinks deep within
Dwell till the box is full.
Till the small toxic thoughts come
And decide to burn the box.
Let it ignite like fireworks in a night sky
But off it goes with all the strength I had.

Take my emotions with you...

I am Happy? Am I?

Earlier today I was in the galaxy
And now I wish to abandon my rocket.
Let me linger between space and time.
Cry you a river, emotions, thoughts
Just make it stop.

The darkness within leaves me with
Puffy eyes and a runny nose.
Questioning if ever I'll make it through,
Deep down I know I will
But it's the same deep down
That bares this gloom.

Glad I see knives and razors shining
But my name they don't call
Wonder what adrenaline they'd give
But want no physical marks
To tell my soul.
For its broken enough inside
So remember to keep the outside spotless.

Do I love me? Do I?

Call me a mental center
Restrain me in my straight jacket.
I promise I'll keep it on,
Just don't forget to keep me company
For these walls can come alive
And have me deeper in my thoughts
You'll never find me.
Watch me stare into your eyes
All you'll see is NOTHING.

Allowed my petals to catch fire
No this was no bushveld fire
Nor a lighter
I allowed the sun to scorch me,
Scorch me till the fire within
Takes my petals burn them to ashes.

I'm loved right? Am I?

Here no me, myself and I exists
We share this vase together
The water, soil, fertilizer and seed
Ray's of sunlight try find a place to sink
No room for more put away your
Roots for they showing your weakness.

Allow me to take a purposeful
Wrong step, let me fall
Fall from the highest skyscraper
Because either way
It's sucked me in...
I mean the deep dark hole I speak
About seems to pull me further
And further inside.

They called her a creature of the light
With a darkened soul.
Had I not mentioned walking in
This light with my own personal
Grey Cloud hovering over me.

I talked her out of thinking disappearance
Not knowing Today I'd be on the edge.
Told her not to look down
Because there's plenty more to
Look forward to.
She heard my plea and came down
From the edge of the building.

But I feel like I've taken her position
Trying to hear my own words
Whisper in my ear
But fail to, for there's more voices
Than that one I used to speak to her.

I feel on the edge ready to pull the plug.
Doctor don't revive me for I'm well
Where I'm going, you did your best.

To those it will affect

You are loved

I hope you allow me to nurture you
In this world of lies.,
Take you to a place where no thought dies.
Let's take our final journey down Psychotics mind
And see what story the thorns weep tonight.

#Psychotic_Rose 🌹