The Walking Dead

Ch38 I Just Ain't Sure

Carl's POV

"Heal!" The girl that I love the most suddenly appeared. Dad and Michonne looked at Rory but Rory is not eyeing on the two of them. She's looking straight into my eyes. 

"Rory" I finally spoke up, a little surprised and happy and excited. "Carl" She softly said.

"Where have you been?" Michonne said as she put her hands on her waist and grins formed to our faces, including dad. 

Rory stood there. She just stood there. Suddenly, a grin formed on her face. "Just to deal with stuff and thangs" She looked at dad and looked at Michonne but she didn't looked at me or even glance for just a little bit... Something ain't right...

Rory suddenly ran to my dad and hugged him. "I'm sorry Mr. Grimes." She said... Oh yeah right. I almost forgot, she's the governor's daughter...

"It ain't your fault, Rory." He said softly and hugged her back. "Give me a hug here, kid." Michonne said with a smile and hugged Rory with a smile. 

Y'know what? It's making me sick not hugging her or her not hugging me! *sigh* Fine, here it is. She's my girlfriend anyway. "How 'bout me?" I asked with a smile and dad and Michonne looked at me with a very large grin on their faces. 

Rory looked at me nervously and walked silently close to me. She looked into my eyes and I looked into her brown eyes. I can see that she's nervous and doesn't know if she'll make the first move. I pulled her close to me and hugged her tightly and whispered to her ear, "I love you." and I didn't get any response

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Alright so it's already night time and we set up a fire and Rory ain't even looking at me or talking to me.

The four of us set up a camp inside a freight and we just put woods in the middle and started a fire. 

I went inside the freight and I saw Rory setting up her sleeping bag that she just found in the other freight. Dad and Michonne are setting their place to the other end of the freight while Rory is, of course, on the other side.

I walked close to Rory and placed my sleeping bag beside her. She looked at me for a moment looked back at her bag. I just laid my bag there and sat on it. I looked at Rory seriously and looked at dad and Michonne and the two of 'em are already asleep.

"What's wrong?" I asked her softly and she looked at me a little teary. "Look, just tell me alright?" I said and pulled her close to me and hugged her. I don't know on how she feels this time and I don't know on what's her problem but I wanna know.

I leaned my back on the freight and hugged her close to me. She hugged me back... I miss this... "I'm sorry" She looked into my eyes and told me that. "Look, back at the prison?" I said and she nodded. "Look, it's alright." I said and it looks like that there's still something that she wants to tell me but I don't want to force her.

"I still love you, y'know that?" I cupped her chin so she is looking at me. "Yes" She said. She looks uncomfortable but also comfortabel... I just can't explain!... I slowly leaned towards her and kissed her. She kissed me back and it just made me happy until she pulled away from me. "I just can't" She said and walked out of the freight and I followed her, of course.

"Look, what's wrong, Rory?" I asked her trying not to keep my voice loud. "There's still something between us, right?" I asked her and she looked at me with teary eyes. "No" She said and looked away. "I thought-" She cut me off and walked close to me. "What ever you think or whatever we have here, it's nothing, alright?!" She said and I just stood there. I felt like I'm gonna cry or something and I fell like that there's a pressure on my chest like somthing's on it that's having weight on me. 

"Look, what ever you think or what ever we have here is gone. There's nothing, Carl. Those things are only back from the prison where we're still happy and complete and alive but all of that is gone now." She leaned close to me and kissed me. It felt like my last kiss that I'm going to have in this whole entire world.  She slowly pulled away and I leaned my forehead onto hers. "If I can just explain it to you straightly." She said. "Why can't you just explain it?" I asked her. "I'll think." She said and walked away. I held on her arm to stop her. I managed to make her look at me. "Do you still love me?" I asked her. "I still do." She said and walked inside.

Aarghh! Y'know what?! I feel like that I'm going to explode right now! She is the only girl that I can love and then she left me?! I don't even know why? I feel so confused right now! She ain't even telling me a thing on why she's like that?! Or why girls are like that?! Y'know what?! If I can just change into something that might hurt her like maybe be a bad boy that can do stuff with girls to hurt Rory but I just can't?! Look, there are no girls around here to hang around here... Well of course not Michonne... But I just can't do it to her. Not that I can't do it to her because there are no teenage girls  around here,  I just can't do it because I still love her and I care for her. I can't even manage to lie or hurt her emotionally and physically! I justy am so confused right now about love. But, look, she said she still loves me, right? She just maybe have a problem or something like that. God, help me.

Sorry for my previous short chapter. I updated this fast 'cause I just feel like writing y'know?

Anyway,

Rory G. signing out!And piece-out!