Floating In The Sky

Chapter 17

We reached home at night. I got into my room and lied on my bed. It was such an exhausting but a beautiful day. I don't know why but I think I am in love. But I am scared to love, as I don't want this to end like three years ago.

I was absorbed in my thoughts as I heard a knock on the door. "Come in," I said and say upright. Mom came in and sat on the bed.

"Did you had a great time?" She said.

"Yes, it was the awesome day I ever had."

"I have to tell you something as you will be going tomorrow." She looks at her hands on the bed. "You deserve to know why we had a divorce."

Bad news. "I know because he turned abusive towards you that's why."

"Yes, that is the reason but there is also a reason why he turned abusive." I take her hands in mine. "When I was at your age I fell in love with Jenson. At that time, my father was in the verge of death so he married me to your father." Tears dropped from her eyes. "I wanted to forget him but it was hard, that was when the beatings started. He told me everyday to forget about him, I tried. But no. So when you turned six I divorced him as the pain was unbearable." She concluded. "For all these years I missed you but I couldn't see you because of your father I hope that he takes good care of you."

I nodded, "you did what was right for you and I respect that." I get up and make for the door.

"Where are you going?"

"I need some time alone." I walk downstairs and get out of the house into the dark garden with a starry sky. You did what was right, Mum. But you don't know that for your decision I am getting all his rage and hatred. You should have told your father about Jenson, so none of this would have happened. You are so selfish.

My freedom has now ended. I will have his rowdy behaviour once I reach home. Home. The word sickens me that place is no more than a hell, it isn't that home when we once used to live, happily. Happily. A word only used in fairytales to end as they say, "and they lived happily ever after," but not everyone have their happily ever after. Some people live unhappily ever after like me.

My eyes started to water as tears poured out. "Willow?" Justin's voice came. I wiped them from the back of my hand.

"Yeah," I look back at him as he walks and stands beside me.

"What are you thinking?"

"Thinking that someone should write a book which states an unhappy ending for those who have an unhappy ending." I cross my arms,"I mean some of us have a happy ending some don't. Just writing a happy ending in every book gives a sad person hope that their lives will also end happily when in reality it doesn't." Tears threatened to come and I let them flow. "Like me, I am given hope everyday by these authors but I come to realisation that happiness won't enter in my life."  I choked onto my words.

"You are wrong," he said. I look at him with my eyes glistening with tears, " 'If you want the rainbow, you have to deal with the rain' . This is a quote I have read in a book which didn't had a happy ending. As you know, every page of your life is written by you." He cups my face with his hands, "So, it's all your choice to have a happy ending or a sad one. I know you will write it wisely. Will you?" I nodded.

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Author's Note:
Somedays don't and beautifully.
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