S T I T C H E S | Grey's Anatomy

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I couldn't sleep, I was just there, sitting on the side of her bed. She looked so calm, the cut on her cheek was sutured but unfortunately she would have a scar. She had a tube that came out of her throat, there were machines that showed her heart rate, Dr. Nelson hadn't cut her hair but she had a bandage around her head. I hadn't noticed that it was daylight until I had a message from Callie, she told me that she had left Zola in the nursery, a nurse entered the room to open the curtains and check how Meredith was

 -" Dr. Shepherd, do you want some coffee? "-

-" ahh, yes, thank you, a cafe would be fine "- she looks at me distressed, I don't want to know how I look. The monitor starts to whistle and I look at her terrified, but there's no reason to be, Meredith was waking up -" Calm down, you're fine, I'm going to get you that, wait ... "-I helped her remove the tube so she could breathe for herself. She looked confused, maybe she didn't even know what her name was

-" Derek? "- relief was invading me, she recognized me that meant that her memory was fine         -" my head hurts "-

- "You had a surgery, but you're fine ..." I put my hand over hers, but she moved it as soon as she felt it.

 -" don't touch me - her eyes reflected hate

-" Meredith, you're fine, you're safe, I'm here "-

 -" Where were you?! Where the hell were you Derek ?!"- I was surprised,  Meredith wasn't like that -" he's going to find me "- she whispers and then looks at me terrified -" Derek he's going to find me! "- now she was screaming in fear, something was very wrong

-" no one is going to find you, I promise, no one ..." - Meredith began to cry and my first impulse was to wrap her in my arms and to my surprise this time she didn't say anything. I stayed with her until she went back to sleep, I said to a nurse to called Nelson, I needed to talk to him.

-" Good morning Derek "- he greets as he walks towards me

-" Meredith awake, her emotions are confused"-

 -" oh ..." - I look at him, hoping for a better answer than that - that means that one of hers aneurysms caused side effects, but as you say she just woke up, we have to give her time, look at how Meredith's state evolves " -

-" and what if she is not herself again? Tell me, what would happen? "- I was upset, I didn't want that for Meredith-" Derek you know what can happen, not all people react the same, maybe if she didn't like going to parties before now she loves to go - I laughed, it was so stupid what he was saying but it was true, they could be insignificant things or really important things, what if she didn't want Zola anymore? -" it's a matter of time, Derek "-I turn to see her, she's still asleep

"-I will come to see her when she wakes to do some tests and see how is she, okay? "- I nodded and went back to the chair to be next to her,I didn't want to leave her alone.A few minutes later Owen arrived, he told me that they had found the man who had done this to Mer and that they had already taken him to jail, we were safe,I wanted to go and break that bastard's face. Meredith woke up an hour later, at the same time as Nelson was at ICU.

 -" Hi Meredith, how do you feel? "-

 -  amazing- her voice was angry - when can I go? - Nelson laughs a little - what's so funny? -
 -" Well, you can not leave today, you will stay here for a few days "- I listen as Meredith whispered something but I couldn't understand it -" Okay Meredith ... "- Nelson began to ask questions routine, proving that "everything was fine" -" good , physically everything seems to be okay, I'll ask to a nurse to give you medication to relieve the pain and in an hour a doctor will come to ask you a few questions" - Meredith didn't say anything, she just looked out the window. Dr. Nelson left the room, leaving only the two of us.

-" How do you feel, my love? "- I asked trying to get her attention and she gave me an answer but the only thing I resisted was the silence -" the guys were worried about you, they were waiting all night with me to know how you were "- and again silence. I took it for granted that she did not want to talk, so it was me who spoke all that time. The hour had passed and we were waiting for that doctor

-" Meredith, my love, please talk to me "- I prayed. Meredith looked me in the eyes, I saw the anger and sadness in them, they looked broken

-" he raped me "-I listen to her words and just that enough for everyone to disappear, the doctor came and she ssaid hi to both of us but the only thing I could think were those 3 words, he raped me.