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I woke up thanks to my headache and the first thing I felt was that I was in a bed ... in my bed.
- I thought you were gone - Derek's voice scared me, I didn't know he was there

- Derek, I ... -
- let me talk - he sighed and spoke again - when I saw you in that trauma room my world stopped. I thought I would lose you. When you left surgery I thought that you wouldn't wake up, but you did it and that was when I breathe again, because the fear of losing you forever didn't let me do it. When I realized that you had changed I thought that you would leave me, because if the old Meredith couldn't with me sometimes, how she would now? a grumpy and demanding girl who can't stand anything, as she would. But you didn't, you didn't go, you're still here but the truth is that I feel that you are moving away, you drink and drink until you can't anymore and ... when I look at Owen had found you I remembered that day in which he and Christina found you, a day when I wasn't for you.- he had tears in his eyes and he struggled not to let them escape- I don't want something bad to happen to you because you are my life, you and Zolas are what I love most in this damn world and I cannot imagine it without one of you, Mer ... - and finally the tears fell.

- Derek, don't cry - I hadn't realized that I had been holding my tears until I felt them in my face - I'm sorry, I didn't want ... I did not want to tell you that it was your fault what happened to me Just ... I was just angry - I reached out my arm so I could take his hand - I love you so much Derek, and that will not change even if I'm a grumpy and demanding woman who cannot stand anything - a laugh came out of his mouth of the
- then stop making me believe that at any moment you will go out that door and don't come back, stop making me believe that you don't love me anymore, or Zola. She misses her mom-

- Listen well Derek, that will never happen, I promise - I got out of bed and I didn't think, I just did.

I kissed him.

That same afternoon I practically begged Owen to release me, to let me return to my work, and miraculously did it, gave me permission to come back early the first morning and to celebrate the boys brought Chinese food, Lexi bought wine and Chritina put the music, it was something to celebrate.

The wine, I didn't want to drink too much tonight, I didn't want to ruin it, so I didn't drink a drink and it seemed that I returned the joy of my husband's eyes, and that made me happy because, for the first time, he didn't look at me as if I were a broken toy that has to be fixed.