S T I T C H E S | Grey's Anatomy

VIII

I decided that I was going to take some days off to be with Meredith but today was the last day so I got up early to make Meredith's breakfast.

-" Hi, you coming back today?" - Lexi was already in the kitchen preparing coffee and Alex down with me
-" Yeah, I was thinking about making Mer's breakfast before I left "- I answered

-" that's love, dude"- Alex said while grabbing a toast -" it's late, we've to go Lexi "- Both left the kitchen and left the house so I take advantage to make some hot cakes and some coffee and after 15 minutes Meredith came up to the kitchen

-" I wake up and you were not there"- she said as she crossed her arms.

-" come on,  eat something "- I answered with a smile but my cell phone began to ring, it was an emergency in the hospital -" damn it"- whisper

-" Run, don't stay for me" - Meredith, sometimes she was so Meredith. I kissed her on the forehead and went up to Zola to take her to the nursery, Meredith wasn't completely sure she could take care of our daughter by herself. - I love you - she didn't give me an answer but I didn't give importance so I left the house and went straight to the hospital.

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My day in the hospital ended earlier than usual and I would normally look for a good surgery but this time it was different, my wife had been all day in the house totally alone and bored so my plans with her were to make dinner and watch any movie she wanted, Meredith wasn't yet ready to have sex, she still remembered what had happened whit that man.

I arrived at the house and down with Zola in her baby carrier and when I opened the door the smell of alcohol indorated my nostrils, Meredith was in the living room and there were several bottles of beer, some wine and my bottle of bourbon in the half, this morning was completely full. l Ieave Zola in her crib and go down to see Mer, she was "watching the television"

-" did you drink all day? "-I ask angrily

-" You came back!" -she smiled to me while she was holding my bottle to give it another drink

-" yeah, I did, and you didn't even eat your breakfast, the house smells like bar Meredith! "-

- "and why do you scream? "- she tried to take a drink again but I take the bottle -" Derek!"
- "Come on, you smell at Joe's bar, you need to take a bath "- I take her arms and help her get to our room

-" you know, Joe would be offended" - she laughed 

After taking a shower I take her to the bed

-" Wait, Derek "- she took my hand so I would not leave

-" Yeah? "- I asked, tired.

-"do  you love Me?" - her question struck me, why did she ask me that?

-" of course I love you Mer, I'd be crazy if I didn't"-

-" then don't leave me, stay with me and don't let me sleep "- during these days she had been waking up for her nightmares

-" you have to Meredith, and you know it"- I started to touch her hair while she settled in the house next to me

-" but I don't want ..." - but before she can say anything else she was sleeping. I stayed there with her and then I went to feed Zola.

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The next day Meredith didn't wake up before I left, so I left her a post-it by the side of the bed telling her I would come back early.

 I leave Zola in the nursery and go downstairs to check out a few of the passages and meet up with Christina

-" Hi, how is Mer? I haven't been able to go, things in the hospital are accumulated and a resident is off so I take care of the Mer's interns" -

-" umm, we do what we can, yesterday I found her drunk "- I said while signing some papers

-" drunk ?, she doesn't drink if she's not with me or Alex "- she said confused
-" well, yesterday she was " - I sighed while giving the files to a nurse -" I'm afraid Christina ..." - she looks at me confused
-" What do you mean?"-

-"I'm afraid that she's not going to be like she was before, she's afraid to take care of Zola, she hasn't slept well in days, she doesn't eat, barely  talks to me or Lexi, Alex talks to her but she Ignore him "- I took my hair and sighed again -" I'm afraid that she will stop importing everything, Dr. Wilkenson said that she had been very depressed and now is worse. Oh my God!, I'm a neurosurgeon! How the hell I didn't notice the aneurysms ?! She sais that she had some  headaches but I never noticed them ..." -

- "it's not your fault Derek, she was dark and twisted and it wasn't because of you, her life has never been pink, just give her time-"

-" time, like when she tried to drown herself in the bathtub or like when she didn't mind dying by the bomb. Yeah, we have to give her time - I turned around and went straight to my office, I didn't want to talk whit anyone right now.

I left the hospital at 6pm, just like yesterday.

I arrived at the house and looked for my keys to open the door and when I did it, there was it,  the smell of alcohol was in the house, again.