rants | stnar

musical chairs isnt for children

okay to be honest dont even ask about the title because i dont know where the even came from.

i think i somehow tapped into a creative vein somewhere because i keep coming up with random stuff like that very easily.

like im not kidding i just typed in music and then i typed the rest with no reason or explanation to even do so, i didnt even think it. it literally just showed up but we already know i lost my sanity a long time ago so that may explain a thing or two.

but my playlist is officially over 500 songs. yes, i am the music queen bow down to me. ok thats obviously a joke because i know for a fact there are longer ones but that doesnt mean i cant be proud of myself for finding new music, okay?

its really interesting if you think about it. some music can really speak volumes to your personality but other songs are there just for the temporary 'high' they give you when you listen to them. they dont have to mean anything but they give you an extra boost of confidence and a feeling of invincibility while it plays.

i think music a lot of times just reprograms your brain for the period of time that you give it to grace your ears. you dont have to think of anything else, you just have to get taken away into the song and you feel like youre floating.

as we all know, my rant book has turned into a stream of consciousness book. i think i prefer it this way because it conveys a more raw understanding of a human being and not a planned facade of humor and invulnerablity. whether i want to or not, im pouring my brain into yours. and honestly whos to say that you want it either.

i bet a most people enjoyed the funny rants, but this is better for me because this is me.

i dont have to pretend anything. not that i pretended anything back in the past, but i didnt write necessarily about anything that actually meant anything at all.

my old 'content' was structured basically like a youtube video where they would give you a list of things a perform a skit to demonstrate their point.

i bet they write their skits like i wrote those rants.

now i have no problem at all with those rants, i honestly thoroughly enjoyed them. i just dont really do them anymore because they didnt say anything at all.

i know i dont really write "rants" that much anymore either, but i dont want to just bullcrap something and pretend it makes me mad. sure, there are plenty of things that upset me, but its up to me whether i choose to actually talk about them or not. at this point, some things have angered me for so long that there isnt even a point to talk about them anymore because i have talked and ranted about them to actual people, thus defeating the need to talk about them in here.

also, yes i actually talk to people im sure thats a surprise.

its surprises me too, to be fair.

but im glad i went with that obscure title, because since im not giving a specific topic im a lot to go off on whatever tangent i want to, how lucky am i?

oh yes, i would like to take this time to give a shoutout to a new wattpad member. their story is very good and if anyone happens to stumble upon this horrid rant book i would like to lead you to something that isnt horrible.

croutonsandsalad

go follow them, you wont regret it i swear.

well i dont really know what to talk about now so im going to end with a song again, that sound good?

enjoy it, and let the music take you somewhere beautiful.

conveniently enough, you can find some of the lyrics to this beautiful song in my bio. i love this song.

bye.

stay hydrated and stay alive my friends.