Too Skinny

Why Is It Always Me?

You don't know what death feels like until your in your bed and gasping for your last breath. I clutched my heart and breathed in deep. Mia's hand was on my knee and it had a ghostly trail to it. Her touch was cold and her sunken eyes proved that she was nothing but a figment of my imagination. She climbed in to my bed and sat down next me. She looked in to my eyes and bent down so her mouth was touching my ear.

"You will be joining me very soon Flower." is all she says. She quietly gets up and walks out, but before she leaves, she turns to face me again, and laughs. My hands are shaking and my forehead is dripping with sweat. I take the bandana off my head and wipe the sweat away, then put it back. I took a long, shaky breath and grab my phone. I see that Melanie texted me like 4 times. 

hey. text me when you can.

hey. just checking up on you. 

dude, where are you? you never not respond to my texts

okay flower. you've made me do something i don't wanna do. I'm coming down and not leaving your side for a minute. I'll be there in an hour. 

I check the clock on my phone and saw that she'd be there in about 15 minutes. Enough time to clean myself up and hand sanitize everything. I press the nurse button and she comes running in. 

"How may I help you Miss?" she asked as she walks over to my side. 

"I was just wondering if it would be okay if I took a shower?" I ask. The nurse smiles and nods her head. She waits until I'm up from the the bed and then she ushers me to the shower room. It had a metal floor and yellow walls. Really not a good combination. She shows me how to work the showers and then she leaves. I sigh and let the hospital dress drop down to my ankles. I pull down my panties and turn on the hot water. When it reaches an acceptable temperature, I get in and start to wash my body and scalp. I can't wash my hair because I had none. I'm almost done, when I hear a voice in the other room. I shut off the water and wrapped the white towel that they gave me around my body. I walked out and I see a girl looking out my window. 

"May I help you?" I ask. She doesn't turn around so I tap her on the shoulder. After a couple seconds, she turns to face me. I scream and fall to the floor. The flesh on her face is gain green and falling off. Her eyes are brown and bloody. Her hair was burnt in places and in others was just plain gone. She steps closer towards me and reaches out to grab me. 

"You're next." she growls. She sounds like she has a frog in her throat and that frog had babies and died. I scream and cover my face. Even though I can't see her, I still sense that she's there. My voice doesn't give out so I scream and scream and scream. I make my scream so high pitched the I have to squeeze my eyes shut and cover my ears. I feel hands on me and I whip away. I uncover my eyes and clutch my towel. I run out of the room and in to the lobby. I keep running and running and running. I hit the elevator button and wait for it to come down.When it dings, I hop on and stand there, my chest rising and falling rather quickly. I notice that a boy is looking at me. He looks like he's about my age and he has a beenie and a plaid shirt and khaki shorts. He has a couple tattoos, his ears are pierced and his lip is too. I look at him and see that his eyes are a dashing shade of.....yellow?

"Liver Cancer." he says. I blush and look down at my towel. 

"Brain Cancer." I say. He nods and holds out his hand. 

"Hi. My name's Will." I take his hand an shake it.

"I'm Flower." I say. I can see his eyes sparkle when I say my name. He stops shaking my hand and I drop it down to my side. 

"I'm visiting my mom up on the 5th floor." he says. "She has pneumonia and I'm bringing her flowers." he holds up the bouquet of roses that I didn't notice before. I nod and press my floor button. 

"Didn't you just come from there?" he asks. I blush some more and explain everything that happened to me. Starting with the shower and ending with the running. He nods and doesn't ask any questions, he just listens. When it reaches his stop he tips an imaginary hat and I laugh. The elevator closes and I have a sudden urge to stop it, run after him and press his lips to mine. But I don't and I let the elevator door close. 

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I reach my room and get dressed. The nurses rush in and ask me a ton of questions. I answer every one of them and they tell me that the lady was in my head and she was there because of the tumor. I nod and say that I understand because I do. They leave and I pick up ym phone. Melanie texted me again. 

I'll be there in 10 minutes.

5 minutes. 

Leaving the house. 

Never mind. I'm not coming. I met this really cute guy in a coffee shop and I ended up talking to him for hours. I'll visit another time. Promise. ;)

I smile to myself. Only Melanie would let a guy get between her getting somewhere. 

That's fine. I text. I put down my phone and pick up my computer. I click on Netflix but before I watch anything, I keep remembering how Will's eyes sparkled when I said that my name was Flower. Why did they sparkle? Does he like me? Will he try to find me? So instead of watching a movie, I just sat there thinking about my muse.