3 Words

One woman

3 words

One woman

Over the last couple of days, I've been watching Carmen and Jess and I can't get over how close they seem compared to how they was before. I tried to brush it off and tell myself that I was being silly, but I just had this gut feeling. And I normally always follow that, it's never let me down before. So I guessed this time would be no different. I made up my mind, tonight when Jess came home from work, I was going to ask her outright about their new found fondness of each other.

Carmen had been with me for most of the day and it was weird between us now, she didn't even flirt with me anymore. Not that I was bothered as I was completely obsessed with Jess. But it was just one of my many observations. I know what Carmen is like, she's such a sensual person and very sex orientated. So this was very odd behaviour for her. There wasn't even so much as a mention of sex, I was seeing a more caring side to her. She spent most of her hours running around after me, making sure I was alright.

As the day turned in to night, it was time for me and Carmen to say our goodbyes. She'd brought Prince and Princess with her today so I got to spend some time with my babies, which was one of my favourite things to do. I missed being with them everyday and I hope they understood and didn't think I had abandoned them. Carmen was taking them home for me and she was staying at my place while I was away, to keep an eye on things. Just as we gave each other a quick hug goodbye, I pulled away and said,

"Carmen. Can I ask you something?"

"Sure" she replied.

"Have you met someone else?"

"Why? Does it bother you?"

"No I'd be happy for you. I've told you all along I want you to find someone who wants to be with you as much as you want to be with them."

"Well no I haven't" she snapped. But she was forgetting I know her better than she knows herself and I could see the twinkle in her eye. It was like she was giving me a smug smile, but just by using her eyes.

"You can tell me you know? I've noticed you're totally different with me since the accident"

"Because you need to make a full recovery. I thought sex would be the last thing on your mind, especially with me."

That helped clear things up for me. But I still wanted to talk to Jess as I still wasn't convinced. Carmen left after our conversation ended bluntly and Jess returned within the next half an hour or so. I wasn't on my own for very long, kind of felt like a child always having to be accompanied by someone. But I knew it was better to be safe than sorry.

For the rest of the evening, Jess came in and cooked us dinner, as she did most nights. She told me all about her day and work was always so busy for her. I didn't realise how much hard work actually goes in to being the perfect pop star. And Jess told me that this was her less busy schedule. She'd asked the label to reduce her hours so she could come home and look after me in the evenings. But usually she'd work right up until the early hours of the next morning. Made me believe that she wouldn't have time for a partner. Not that I was assuming anything would ever happen between us. I still wasn't even 100% sure if Jess was that way inclined. Even after spending all this time with her. We slept in the same bed every night and Jess said it was just to put her mind at ease. There's plenty of spare bedrooms in her apartment but she'd only fill her nights with terror, constantly wondering if I was okay. So she insisted I stayed in her room, but she stuck to her side of the bed and I stuck to mine. That's how it had always been.

We sat down and ate dinner at the table together, then made our way upstairs. Jess wanted to get an early night as she had an extremely busy day tomorrow, full of radio interviews.

As we made our way in to the bedroom Jess grabbed some pyjamas and threw them on the bottom of the bed for me. We both stood at opposite sides of the bed, facing different directions, being sure we couldn't see each other getting undressed as quickly as possible. We had this thing where we'd race and the winner always got to choose what movie we'd end up watching. As I pulled my top over my head, I jumped on the bed and shouted,

"READY"

As I looked over Jess was covering her boobs by holding them with her hands. She turned round and threw the remote control my way and said,

"You best get searching for a film then."

But as she threw the control, I couldn't help but stare at her boobs. I must admit they wasn't very big but they certainly were perfect.

"Oi" Jess sustained.

"Sorry I was lost in thought over which movie to pick."

Which didn't really get much of a response from Jess. She continued getting ready while I flicked through films on Netflix. Jess jumped in bed next to me and pulled the covers over both of us. She was so cute. To care about others just seemed like a natural instinct to her, half the time I wondered if she even realised she was doing it. Jess teased me for how long I was taking to pick a film, I could tell she was getting a little impatient so I clicked on the next one I came across, which just so happened to be a horror. Jess shrieked,

"Noooooooooo! I'm absolutely petrified of scary films"

"Don't be silly... It's not real" I assured her.

"I know but I've never been good at watching scary films. Not unless well..... Ummm... Not unless... Ummm"

"Not unless what?"

"Not unless the person I'm with let's me snuggle in to them" she blurted while hiding her face under the covers.

I wasn't sure if that was my cue to offer or if I was just getting mixed signals. But I slowly pulled the covers away from Jessie's face and said,

"Would it be weird if I offered to hold you?"

"If you don't mind? I'm such a baby I know but I can't help it."

"Come here you titty baby" I replied while wrapping my arm around her. My hand rested on her shoulder and she nuzzled her head to rest on my chest. It felt a little awkward at first as we were both so tense, but after a couple of minutes I could feel Jess relax and sink in to our cuddle properly. There are no words to describe how incredible it felt to have her in my arms. I felt so close, I figured now would be the perfect time to ask her about her and Carmen.

"Jess, can I ask you something"

"Yes what is it?" She replied while looking up at me.

"Do you like Carmen?"

"Yeah she seems nice. Why?"

Jess seemed completely oblivious to what I was actually getting at.

"No I mean do you like Carmen, you know, like that?"

"WHAAAAAAT" her tone of voice slightly changing to sound a little annoyed.

"I'm sorry I just noticed that you both seem really close now and I remember she didn't really like you before"

"Don't be silly. I guess we just bonded while waiting for you to wake up from your coma."

"Oh okay" I replied.

A few moments passed my mind couldn't help but wonder. Jess didn't jump to her defence and declare how straight she is, did she? So maybe she does like girls after all.

"So you do like women?" I questioned.

"No"

The room went quiet for a minute but it felt like the longest minute of my life.

"I like A woman. One woman" she continued.

"Who?"

"You!"

Suddenly, I felt my heart race and my cheeks burn. I wasn't expecting that at all. I completely froze on the spot and was genuinely speechless. I could hear the voices in my head screaming at me to say something back, but no words would come. Fuck this was uncomfortable.