Divergent: No War

Chapter 36

He looks at me, with sad, angry, horror filled eyes, and just walks away.

I go after him. He walks off to his apartment, and shuts the door in my face.

I pound on the door. "Let me in, we need to talk."

He opens the door. "What is there to talk about? I'm angry. You surely didn't do anything to stop him from kissing you, Tris, why shouldn't I be mad?"

"Tobias, I-" He cuts me off.

"Don't call me that." He shuts the door.

I almost burst into tears, but instead, all my sadness turns into anger and I want to pummel Jeremy.

I race down to the training room, and find him. I drag him to his feet by his shirt collar.

"He hates me, now. Just because you idiot couldn't understand I didn't like you."

I punch him. My knuckles burn from the impact, but I don't care I do it again. And again and again and again, until Uriah pries me from him. He leads me out of the room, taking me down the hall to where our apartments are.

"You should calm down before you get back to the game." He says, before walking away.

Once he is out of sight, I scream. Not just a normal scream, but a good one, full of all the emotions I need to break out.

I slide down the wall, just outside my apartment, pressing my face to my hands. Tears fall down me cheeks, but I don't care; they are the only warmth I feel while coldness surrounds me.

I scream again, as loud as I can, because most people were still our partying, and wouldn't be disturbed by my outbursts.

Eventually, Christina confronts me, leading us inside. She guides me towards my bed, and I collapse onto it.

"Maybe talking about it will help you." She says, sitting down next to me.

"He hates me, hates me." I manage to get out, tears streaming down my face.

"Why?" She asks, in a soothing tone.

"Because, Jeremy was kissing me, and I was pushed up against the wall, and I could get him to stop or anything. I just tried to relax, and get my heart rate down- like in a fear landscape- and To-Four came in." I almost said his name, even when he didn't want me to call him that anymore. I catch my head in my hands, as my sobs rack my body.

Christina gently rubs my back, before telling me to lay down and get some sleep. I try to sleep, but I can't. I feel empty.