It started as a one night stand. Nothing was suppose to happen, but someone always get attached. So it's a bad thing when Alexander-Keith wants a little more than one night from Milagros.
It's not surprising that things don't always go smoothly. Wi...
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Mila Miller
He never said anything to me on the ride home, I went back to his place with him in hopes he'd tell me his side of the story. When we got into the apartment he didn't turn on the lights, we just sat in the dark with the lights of Manhattan shining onto us.
"I had just became residency, I wasn't making as much as I make now but I was making a lot for me to be that young, and it seemed like she came into my life at the perfect time cause I wanted someone to share all of this with. She was everything I ever wanted at first, just perfect, then when I started picking up more hours just like that she started acting out and cheating on me. It wasn't a secret either, she would do it in front of me, it was the most embarrassing shot ever. Yo, Mila I was so heart broken. One night she came home and apologized, and wanted to have sex but I knew the niggas she laid with was dirty so I told her no, at least not until she got tested. " He paused and chuckled, shaking his head.
"To make her feel better I got tested too. We got tested for everything that day, and when the results came in, she had herpes, and chlamydia. I was all negative, and I thanked God. Looking back at it now, it's obviously because of work and how many hours I picked up, but I didn't go to school for nine years to give up my career over some girl I knew didn't really love me. Cause I had worked my ass off to be where I was. I was so smart yet so dumb, you'd think that a nigga who graduated high school at fifteen, graduated college early, would make better decisions but I didn't. When I left her I got so caught up in different things, that I didn't break it off with her but I had sex with someone else. She walked in on me and the woman at work, and I still felt like shit when she caught me even though I know she did me dirty, and that point was still doing me dirty."
My feet started to hurt, so I sat on the floor next to him. I leaned against the glass windows.
"I would drink everyday... and since my family is back in Sacramento, Baby took care of me. The boys would help me out, I was a wreck. Sooner than later I was addicted to alcohol, drink, after drink, after drink. I hated not being sober enough to control my life, but I hated being sober even more." He sighed, after that he got quiet.
"When did you stop?"
"Around the time I met you. That's when I found out I had developed an allergy." He looked at me, with a small chuckle."You mean more to me than you can ever imagine. Whenever I lash out it's because of this stupid paranoia I have of getting my heart broken again."
"I wouldn't do that to you, especially now that I know how I feel about you. Even if this," I pointed between us, "is going down in flames I'm fighting for it. Although I do feel feel like sometimes the pregnancy puts a strain on us, I'm here for the long run."
"I genuinely don't mean to stress you out. I know I say it won't happen again all the time, but I'll do whatever it takes to make this right. What ever you want. I'll do whatever you need me to do. I miss waking up to you, holding you, kissing you, all of that. If I could go back and change that whole night, I swear I would."
The light of the city glistened on his skin, and I got lost in his eyes. They were deep whirlpools of love, lust, and emotion. His body language made him all the more delectable, and I felt like I was falling in love all over again. The fact that his looks make me fall in love is probably bad, but it's him that makes me want to fight.
Fight for a love I've never had before, because deep down I know he has just been through a lot. Fight for the fact that no matter what, he has treated me better than any man I've ever been with. Fight for him. Hopefully this wouldn't be something I regret, but I'll do what it takes.
"I love you Mila. I mean it."
"I love you too Xander."
**
Soft rubbing motions on my thighs woke me out of a nap. My legs were up, and instead of Xander being next to me watching television he was between my legs.
His head on my crotch, my legs over his arm. He had his cheek pressed up against my inner thigh.
"I have to pee." I mumbled, he got up and I went to pee.
When I came out of the bathroom, he was sitting up on the bed with his head between his hands and shoulders slouched.
I sat down next to him, "What's wrong?"
"I'm not sure which one of you I'll love more. You or bear." He put his head in my lap.
"You make me so happy Mila, and I don't know why I don't show you how much I appreciate you more, but I promise I'll do it."
"You do enough. I promise that even the bare minimum is good enough for me."
"No. I don't want that to be it. Bear can't grow up seeing that. She can't think that what is required in a relationship is the only thing she settles for. Get out of that minds set Mila, expect more from me. Push me to do better in our relationship, not just for my line of work, but for us." He held me even tighter, and wouldn't let me go.
I thought about what he said, and I didn't want the baby growing up thinking that what is required in a relationship is outstanding behavior. It seemed so low, and the bare minimum.
He stared at me for what seemed like forever, finally kissing me. "You're so beautiful."
I blushed, dismissing his comment. "Seriously, you're the most beautiful woman I've ever laid eyes on. No other woman has my attention but you. I can't wait to call you my wife." He gently held my face in his direction so to entail he had my full attention.
"You wanna have my last name?"
I nodded, "Let's do it. Right now." He got up off the bed, getting on one knee.
"Right now?!" I was so taken aback.
"Yes right now! We get some rings later, and do the whole big wedding thing after the baby." Xander smiled from ear to ear as he listened to himself talk about it.
"B-but why right now?" I was uncertain, what if he didn't really want this, but was only doing it because I'm pregnant.
"I can't go another day without having this shit on lock. I really can't, and I mean we already act like it so why not?"
"I don't want you only doing this because I'm pregnant. We can wait, let's not rush into this if we aren't ready." I rationalized.
"Why you backing out on me? You just said you wanted my last name." He chuckled, in a unsure manner.
"Because I need to know that once we do this, you don't regret it. If I marry you today I need to know these problems we have are buried and won't come up again."
"Done."
**
HELLOOOOO,
Now I know this update is long overdue, yes I know but I'm back. This update was actually suppose to happen like on Sunday but I fell asleep. But I'm back in business baby. Let's get this back on track.
