Tell Me- A Jonah Marais fanfic

I wish things were different...

Flash back Jonahs past

It all started that first day of school. My first day of the 9th grade. I had my two best friends by my side. Harrison and Simon. We all sat in the lunchroom for breakfast while we reviewed our schedules. We had no classes together. This blows. We went to first period. I saw 3 boys huddled in a corner. I approached them wanting to talk. When I got close I realized that they had a girl pinned to the wall, harassing her. "BACK OFF!" I yelled. The boys turned to look at me. "Shut up pip squeak" one boy said. He was smaller than me. One boy was taller and the other was my size. "Why are you harassing this girl?" I asked. "She looked at me" the taller boy said.  I picked up the smaller boy and slammed him to the floor. The taller boy started to choke me when the teacher walked in. "David! Office now!" She yelled. The other boys followed him. I looked at the girl now crying in the corner. I helped her up. She had bruises and marks on he arms and neck. "Jonah, take her to the nurses" the teacher said. She was limping so I put her arm around my neck and I helped her walk to the nurses. "What's your name?" I asked. She looked away. She was crying. "Hey. I'm not gonna hurt you like them." I said. She stayed silent. We got to the nurses. I was told I could go back to class but I waited for her. She came out of the nurses. "Hey, you alright?" I asked. "Don't talk to me" she said. "But-" I started. "All boys are horrible! Your just as bad as them" she said, rubbing her bruises. They looked older than just today. Her, I assume Granddad came around the corner. (Remember that Jeremy and Joan were old so people thought they were grandparents, she didn't talk to anyone about her past) he opened his arms to hug her. "It's okay baby. We're going home" he said. He looked up at me with hate in his eyes "is he the one that did this?" He asked her. She just cried and turned away. He picked her up and left. I went back to class......

Time skip.... next week

It has been a week and the girl is still not back at school. I got on the bus and turned on some Justin Bieber (yes the boys have said they took inspiration from him because he was around their age, and he was successful). I got to school and I saw the girl in first period. I was kinda mad that she blamed me for that. I tried to sit next to her. "No, Jonah. Over there." The teacher said. "Why?" I asked. "Ellie is this the boy that did those things?" She asked the girl. The girl stayed silent. I was furious. Blaming me? I helped her! I sat on the other side of the room. At lunch I sat alone. Harrison and Simon had a different lunch schedule as well. No wanted to sit with me. They probably all thought that I did those things. A few minutes later the girl sat next to me. "Hey, Jonah is it?" She said softly. "Why, what do you want?" I asked kinda mad. "I'm sorry, I hate to do that but my dad-" she started. I stood up. "Oh? Your dad? Your dad told you to blame me? Those boys hurt you! I helped you! You blamed me!" I snapped. She looked sad. "Don't talk to me! I don't want to help you if you're gonna do that!" I snapped again. She started balling. She ran out of the lunch room. I felt so horrible. I just snapped. I didn't mean to say those things, I just reacted because she lied. Now I feel like I'm just as bad as the boys that did that. I looked around to see the whole lunch room staring at me. I walked out of the lunch room. I ran into the school. All the hallways were empty except the girl crying in a corner. I approached her. "Hey I'm so sorry about what I said it's just that-" I started "GO AWAY!!" She screamed. "I was trying to apologize" she cried. I felt so horrible. My heart was breaking. "I was scared to say it was the boys that did it so I blamed you. I didn't want those boys to come after me again. I'm sorry" she said. I started tearing. "You need to go to the principal about it" I said. "Your just like every person here! Thinking the principal will solve everything! Stop trying to help me! I don't want your help!!" She snapped. "It's just-" I started. She cried again. The teacher came out. "Jonah! Stop bullying her!" He snapped. "I wasn't!" I said. He dragged me to the office. Let's just say that I was suspended for a week. The girl wouldn't help me at all. One morning I gotta text

?- hey Jonah, I'm so sorry
Me- who the hell is this?
?- Ellie, from school
Me- oh the girl who got me suspended
Ellie- I'm sorry
Me- don't text me. Twice now you have blamed me for stuff I didn't do!
Ellie- I'm sorry
Me- no! You should have thought about that. Your just to much of a coward to tell the truth
No response.
I tried to apologize for what I texted but she blocked me. My parents told me we were transferring schools. Just before I left I told everyone there that the girl was a liar and don't trust her. Simon told a bunch of rumor about her saying they were from me. Then Simon disappeared. I then realized that I was just as bad as those bullies. I never heard from Ellie again. Until the morning of my 17 birthday. My friend Harrison texted
H-hey bro!
J-hey
H- so you remember Ellie from school?
J-yeah why?
H- no one ever told you but she never came back to school....
J- why are you telling me now?
H- because Jonah.....
J- What?
H-she's dead
J- what?!?
H- yeah, her grandparents died and she disappeared... police say she's dead. On the news this morning
J- I feel awful. I never apologized for what I said all those years ago.
H- bro, just be lucky she lived that long.... rumor has it that after you texted her she attempted suicide.
J- oh my god.... I'm a horrible person.
Just then I got a random text

?- just to let you know... I'm not dead... I might as well be thanks to you. You caused me so much suffering during my life. I attempted suicide 5 times because of you! Your the reason people think I'm dead. Don't tell anyone of this text. I hope I never see you again. Oh wait I won't. I'll be dead tomorrow, have fun in hell, bud.

I started crying. That must have been Ellie. How could I have been so stupid? How could I not see it? I'm so horrible. This girl almost died 5 times because of my bullying and stupidity. I will never forgive myself.