carphology // joshler

one love is lost

TW: mentions of self harm and suicide

Tyler was waiting by his locker for Jenna. It was their two year anniversary and he brought her flowers to celebrate.

When she finally walked over, her mouth opened in surprise.

"Tyler, what's all this for?"

He grinned. "It's our anniversary, silly!"

"Oh.."

"May I take you on a date, m'lady?"

His smile faltered when she sighed.

"Ty, you can't just act like everything is OK between us. Our last coversation was an arguement, and I'm pretty sure you're gay for that blue haired freak."

Tyler ran a hand through his hair. "He's not a freak, Jen. He's my friend. If you got to know him I'm sure-"

"See?! All you can think about is him. Did you forget you have a girlfriend?"

"Jen, I'm so sorry. I'll be a better boyfriend, I promise. I love-"

"No. I can't do this anymore. Next time, give the flowers to your freak."

Tyler stood in the hallway with tears in his eyes while Jenna walked away.

"Jenna! Please just give me another chance!"

All he got in reply was a middle finger. The brunette wiped his face and made his way to the doors, keeping his head down until he got to his car.

-TW-

When he arrived home, he stuck the bouquet in the trash can and ran upstairs. He looked in the mirror at his shaking figure, which only made him cry more.

You're disgusting.

Tyler punched the mirror in anger, the pain in his hand distracting him from everything else.

He took a bandage out of the drawer and wrapped his knuckles, cleaning up the broken shards of the mirror. When he picked up the last piece, he turned it in his hands, pondering the thought of ending it there and then.

Do it.

He took a shaky breath and put the glass in the trash can, then went into his room and hid underneath his covers.

He took out his phone and decided to text Josh.

A/N:
I'm freaking out bc of the whole twitter thing and if they go on a hiatus ! I will cry ! more than I already have !!!