[ Completed ♥️ 23 August 2017 ]
#50 in Fanfics 1.6.18
•Book 1•
Imagine being forced to marry your bias, sounds spectacular doesn't it? For Kim Ji Su, being told that she was being forced into an arranged marriage with Jin, her bias in BTS, seemed...
After our last encounter in the hospital, a huge wave of guilt and regret hit me. I mean, what if she really had nothing to do with all this mess? If we are both being forced into this arrangement, shouldn't I at least treat her in a more friendly manner since we will have to live together until we find a way out of this. Maybe I went a bit overboard. My better judgement was clouded by the anger I felt at the moment, and took it out on her. How was I supposed to keep my calm when something this unjust was sprung on me?
I guess I really am an ass like Yoongi said.
I needed to fix this as much as possible, as quick as possible. Time was not on my side. Lately, no one seems to be on my side actually.
My plan was to hopefully try and talk things out with her first and foremost the next time she came into my hospital room, but she asked a different doctor to take over my case. I guess I also asked her to do that. The moment I was discharged from the hospital, I moved to look for her in her office and around the hospital. To my dismay, I was told she was spending most of her time volunteering at a clinic her dad set up for her. She seems to be an angel sent to help the needy and her I am being an ass to her. But, I still can't get the idea out of my head that she might have persuaded her dad to get this marriage. I don't know what to think anymore. I think that talking it over between us two again will help me see wether she said the truth or not.
I was so conflicted and stressed out about this marriage that after being discharged I went straight to a bar. I just needed a drink to help me relax a little. I had a great time until some asshole came up to me and started saying things like 'only girls wear makeup,' 'why don't you dance for us here,' 'I see you have more layers of foundation than lines in your songs.' That last one made me explode in range and I punched him with all my might. Lucky for me (notice the sarcastic tone) this was all recorded and exposed to the world the next morning. Great, now any chance I had of convincing my company that I could fix my image on my own were destroyed. After this incident I stopped going out.
I just drank at home. Alone.
I can't get her out of my head, but it's been impossible to see her.
Do I hate her? Does she hate me?
Is this marriage thing really going to happen?
I was going to ask Yoongi to help me find her, since it seemed they knew each other, but he's been actively avoiding me even more lately, and honestly I am starting to feel really guilty about what I said to him before.
I just feel guilty about everything.
Since we are getting married, I am bound to see her soon.
It wont be too late to say sorry, right?
------Fast forward a week------
Today is the day of engagement party, where we announce to the world we are getting married. The wedding is a week away. That sounds crazy to say. A wedding, I will be the groom in. A wedding with a doctor I have only spoken to for a couple of unpleasant minutes. I still haven't been able to get in contact with her and its bugging me.
I've been really busy with practice and the tour we are currently on. In about two more weeks we will be heading out on the world tour, so I don't know how this marriage thing will work out.
As a token of my apology, I decided to send her a dress for her to wear for our engagement party. It feels so weird to say 'our,' it gives me goose bumps. My heart is still debating wether or not she took part in this hideous plan. I guess if she is there and looks really happy she was part of the plan and if she is there and looks as miserable as me then I will know she was as forced into this as I was.
I chose a simple but beautiful pink dress as her gift. My stylist helped me pick it out and made sure I got the right size. Our manager delivered it to her. I was actually looking forward to seeing her in it. I hope she accepts my apology. I wore this, simple yet elegant outfit to match with hers.
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After I was done getting ready, I got in the van with the rest of my members, minus Yoongi. We saw that he had changed and we thought he would be coming with us, but he was nowhere to be found. Perhaps he ditched us and went somewhere else. That wouldn't surprise me. He wanted nothing to do with me and I knew it was my fault.
