sorry » im youngmin

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we settled down at the park near our school. he took out snacks from his bag. i gasped in awe, seeing at least 10 different snacks in his bag.

"you know, i initially wanted to bring you out and relieve your stress. i knew i made the right decision the moment you opened your door," he said while stuffing chips into his mouth.

"thank you so much" there is it again, me feeling guilty. i don't deserve any friends, i feel like i am just another burden. and when youngmin brought me out to relieve my stress, i cant help but to wonder what did i do so good in my previous life, that i have a friend like him.

tears were building up. before the tears could even roll down my cheeks, youngmin stuffed a cookie into my mouth.

"eat up. i bought all of your favourite snacks. your comfort food. dont starve yourself anymore"

"huh?"

"hey, you've become much more skinnier. please eat proper meals, and plus," he straightened his back and turned to face me. "why do you always reject me whenever i invite you to have dinner at my place if your mom is still at work during dinner time? you need food, ari"

my eyes met youngmin's. his eyes were more brown than usual. there were creases on his forehead. up till now, i was still unable to read his feelings. i felt so bad, for not knowing his feelings. for everything that he has done for me. because a girl like me does not deserve anyone like youngmin.

i smiled to reassure him that i'm fine. his eyes were still fixed on me even after i looked away. youngmin sighed. it was obvious to him that i wasn't fine. my eyes were still darker than usual.

"is it donghyun? did you dream about him again?"

i did not answer him. he knew that it was indeed because of donghyun. he knew me too well.

"what did he do to make you so in love? i feel sad that you're hurting right now."

what did he do? he did nothing. it was me who fell stupidly for him.

i smiled slightly while i recalled all the memories i had with him, "he wasnt like any other guys. he listened to me-"

"aigoo ya, ari you must've been so blind all this while" youngmin laughed.

i turned to look at him, only to find him continuously munching on the snacks.

"yah, you said you bought this for me, why are you eating most of it?"

his eyes widened, "oh sorry"
he scratched the back of his head, "i was feeling sad too" he smiled apologetically, while putting down the bag of chips onto my lap.

"what for?"

"it's okay"

i rolled my eyes and stuffed more chips into his mouth, a little bit too forcefully.