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「 memories 」

once there was a little boy born in the jeon family, and they named him jungkook. he happened to be born after his father died, thinking he was being killed by his neighbor.

the next morning, mrs. jeon found her husband dead on top of the kitchen counter with a knife stuck to his eye, and the faucet left running overnight.

because of the shocking and traumatic scene, she decided to move somewhere jungkook would never be reminded of his father.

everytime jungkook would ask his mother why he never had a father, she would always say the same thing, 'your father died.' without any explanation at all. when in reality, it was his psychological disorder that did it.

he had schizophrenia.

mrs. jeon never knew how he had come to develop such a disorder. mrs. jeon called their family psychologist to check him, the doctor would say it could've been inherited, some said it could've been from a rare accident that triggered it.

that's why she never let jungkook out of her sight.

but the problem was, the longer he was stuck in their home, the more she had come to realize it was her fault.

because the boy could not experience all the things children should have, and did not get to develop any important social skills, he developed schizophrenia himself.

he talked to his toys until middle school. he always walks around carrying them all, punishing himself by creating scars on his legs or on his forearm for a very peculiar reason, telling his mother: 'i deserve to be punished. mr. bear fell down from the dining table because i let him out of my sight.'

oh, but that was not all.

once the disorder had developed to its full effect at the age of twelve, jungkook would always hold on to his head, scream and kick while he kept saying, 'go away! m-mommy, the voices are out to get me. please, help me!'

starting at the age of twelve, as it was the age it was at its full effect, mrs. jeon had him locked up in an asylum. but of course she stayed by his side, always telling him it was going to help him and that it was going to end soon, as long as he obeys the psychologist's instructions.

once he turned 16, he was transferred to another hospital, this time, for required therapy regarding his relationship with his childhood toys. he didn't need to be locked up anymore. he became better, managing to stay sane and in place.

the therapist's conceptual methodology of healing was letting her patients express themselves freely through various forms of art.

and jungkook chose painting.

'and why choose
this form of art,
jungkook?'
she asked.

'i. . .used to draw a lot of
things on my notebook
before.' he explains, 'i wanted
to take up painting classes.
but mother forbade me.'

as usual, the therapist would take down notes for observation, letting mrs. jeon be notified of his change in behavior; mentally and physically.