Savior// E.D.

E I G H T E E N

My heart was pounding out of my chest, and I laid down listening to the beat of it to distract myself. I was so tempted to fall back into my old habits. I wanted to cut so bad, but I closed my eyes and listened to my heart, thinking about the promise I made to Ethan.

I wanted more than anything to be in his arms right now... a few months ago that would not be the case, but now that is all I want.

Sometimes I wonder if I am crazy to forgive Ethan so easily, but in times like this, I know I have made the right decision. Because if I didn't forgive him, then I would be dead right now.

I curled into a ball breathing heavily still, when my dad came back to me. He paced back and fourth, and I didn't take my tear filled eyes off of him for one second, I was too afraid of his next move. I just prayed that I wouldn't have to suffer anymore.

He came close to me and grabbed me by my neck and held me firmly against the wall. I couldn't breathe, I was scared and felt hopeless.

His eyes were almost black, and he continued to watch my tortured body try to breathe, and in his twisted mind he knew he enjoyed this.

What happened to my perfect childhood I thought I had? My mom died and just like that, my life became something I never thought it would. I lost my friends, my dad, my mom, and even worse? I lost myself more than anyone.

I felt my vision fade in and out until I felt a relief from pressure around my neck, and my body collapsed onto the floor. I couldn't move, so I watched.