Dear Diary

Part 19 - My Pillow

7-26-17

Ok so

I have had this one pillow since I was a little girl.

Since kindergarten.

This pillow has been through some shit.

It was super fluffy, although throughout the years the fluffiness decreased but I was able to move it the way I wanted it. In the way that it mattered to me.

Around 3rd grade, I was a total Twilight fan. I'm not no more but I was at one point. For my birthday that year, I had a Twilight themed birthday party that year. One of the presents I got was a twilight pillow case.

Due to the fact that I slept with that one pillow case for years, I couldn't switch it out because it was going to be weird for me to see something different.

There were torn parts in it, there were holes, you can see that it survived a long time.

So as you can see, this pillow including pillowcase has a lot of sentimental value to me because I've had it since I could remember.

Now here we get to the point of this update. ITS GONE FOREVER

When me and my family went to St Louis so I could go to my friends house for the summer, I brought my pillow with me. When I left to leave with my friend, I realized I forgot my pillow. It wasn't bad yet, because my parents were staying another night at the hotel.

I told my mom I forgot it, and she said that they'll make sure to grab it.

They didn't grab it.

And now, a whole 2 months later, I come home, and I see that I don't have my one pillow that I've always slept with, for years, at home. It was left behind in the hotel. A hotel that's 5 HOURS AWAY

I don't know what to use now. Because of the shape my pillow had taken shape of over the years of me using it, every other pillow just seems super flat now, even when I bend them in half.

THEY JUST DONT FEEL RIGHT.

And so, let it be known that on June 9th, 2017, that my cherished pillow, is forever gone.

I legit don't know what to do. It feel weird sleeping with a different pillow.

Sometimes I hate my life

- Sam