Dear Diary

Part 11 - Arguments

2-17-17

So I know its been a while since I last updated. So a recent thing thats been happening is that I have been arguing with Tyler. This morning it was about me exaggerating, me not listening, and about me denying what I said.

So I told him about my weird dream last night where I got pregnant and I didn't remember when because I was still a virgin last I checked. But he said he also had a weird dream, and when I finished I told him to go ahead and tell me about his dream but he went "I never said I would say what it was." So me being me, I go and ignore him for moment and he tells me what it was about.

Yesterday I got into trouble with my dad and I was going to tell him about it but as a revenge for doing the "I never said Ill tell thing" to me, I just mention it and then I don't say what it was. (Which I got smart with him during a time when dad was testy because of some random things and I wanted to tell Tyler that there might be a chance where I might not be able to say goodbye to him or his family before they move because dad can be a bit evil in that aspect)

I then go "Its been about a minute, I can tell you now." He then starts shit about how the first time it wasn't a minute, and that I shouldn't exaggerate, and whatnot. Dude, just let it fucking go. And then I didn't want to argue with him so I just stayed silent because I'm horrible with words, and so I didn't know how to calm down the argument.

We get to the school, and we go get breakfast. But before we went, I got and place my art bag on top of his earbuds because there are little bitches in the school who would steal them. He's saying that they're fine, no one will take them, etc. And I guess I said steal and/or damage his earbuds, but I dont remember saying that they would damage them. I honest to god dont remember saying that. And so he gets all upset that Im denying saying that, and that he wouldn't be saying something about that if it wasn't true.

So basically, I wasn't listening was what he was saying.

And over the past few months, whenever we had an argument, at some point there was a statement somewhere where he says he doesn't like this one thing about me or about something that I did.

And I turn around and say "Then if you dont like these things, except the second thing (me not listening half the time) then you shouldn't have asked me out." And I immediately leave to go to the band room.

Now some of you guys will probably go Good for you! and You tell him girl! but that was probably the worst thing I could have said to him.

Annabell came in when Josh told her the general idea what happened between me and Tyler because he happened to be there during the last part. She essentially got me to stop sulking for a while, just enough to get me to play for a little while in band.

Tyler has all the reason to be pissed at me and Im fucking terrified to got to class later because today is a White Day so that means that we have Sociology today and we both have that class, and whats even worse, Mr. Hemme assigned groups in our class and me and him are in the same group. I dont even know if he will listen to me later and he is moving to Minnesota this weekend.

Ill get back to you later when either Josh yells at me for what I said to Tyler during next hour, or when Tyler essentially breaks up with me for what I said because Im a little bitch. Whichever comes first.

Update

Me and Tyler talked about it, and we had decided to break up. Not over what happened in the fight, but because hes moving away. One thing I told him was that for me to feel attracted to somebody, I would need to actually see them and not words on a screen. Im not saying that I care about someones looks over personality, seriously im not. Its just i need to see the person for that kind of attraction. Anyways, I left you guys wondering what happened long enough because I partially forgot to update this part. Ill see you guys in the next part. Bye!

-Sam