King of Nothing

Now

Casey has set out a plan for me, and I'm afriad it won't work. But it is a plan to say the least, and I am desperate for anything. 

Casey is having me sing a song out in public for Liz, and then a public apology. 

I have no clue if it will work, but I hope it does. 

I spot Liz sitting on a bench at Central Park, on a bench, her own business, she has a book in one hand and her lunch in the other. 

My hair is bald due to chemotherapy and I have this metal pole on wheels that has these two wires which are stuck into my veins. I think it is an IV, but it could very well be a personalized stripper pole given to my from the hospital. The baldness and the pole makes the singing all the more embarrassing, and the fact that I can't sing and it will be to the song "Don't You Forget About Me" from the movie The Breakfast Club. 

Casey had hooked up a microphone to the speaker and the music started playing as well. I walk up to Liz and tap her on the back, when she whips her head around anger and astonishment faces me. So I begin to sing, 

"Hey, hey, hey, hey

Ohhh…

Won’t you come see about me?

I’ll be alone, dancing you know it baby

Won't you come see about me?

I'll be alone, dancing you know it baby

Tell me your troubles and doubts

Giving me everything inside and out and

Love's strange so real in the dark

Think of the tender things that we were working on" 

I sang heart out and oh boy, was it embarrassing. My face went a bright shade of red, and I danced too. Liz turned her anger to laughter and happiness which brought tears to my eyes. 

"Don't You Forget About Me

Don't Don't Don't Don't

Don't You Forget About Me

Will you stand above me?

Look my way, never love me

Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling

Down, down, down" 

I cotinue the song until it is done. Abouot halfway through it these cops that were strolling by notice me and start chasing around to kick the singing hobo out of Central Park, but I am too fast. I am grateful they do this though because it adds a comedic effect to the emotional performance and I think it only made Liz happier. As the song ends I walk up to Liz dismissing the officers. 

"Liz, I am so sorry. At first I never had the balls to do this, and to confront everything that has happened between us. But with the help of Casey, I am back on track. I am so incredibly sorry. I am stupid, I am scum. I don't even deserve your time right now after what I have done. When we first met, I treated you like an object. Lets face it, I was an asshole. I kept saying that you had cured me, but that was a lie. I was still an asshole, just a dormant one. Once I was married with you, we had Sarah, and my company was succeeding tremendously, I started to relapse. And that is the reason we are here today. I am so sorry for the death of Sarah. I was stupid and reckless and I think about her everyday. I cared about her as much as you did. It was the alcohol that made the decison to drive, not me. I am so stupid for ever drinking the alcohol and I regret it every second of my life. And I'm sorry for cheating on you. I am so sorry that I ever made you feel any less beautiful. You are intelligent, caring, nurturing, and beautiful. I want you to understand that it does not matter if I think you're beautiful or not. Even though I do, all that matters is that you believe it. That is all that counts. I am so sorry for cheating on you it was a mistake. That was a domino effect of what happened with Sarah. I am so very sorry for it all, I wish that I had never even met you just because maybe I wouldn't have damaged your life so much. Now I would not say I regret getting sewed all those years ago, because I made memories with you and Sarah that I would have never ever experience the beautiful moments I shared with the two of you. I used to be an asshole, but I'm not anymore. Living on the streets has awakened me. It has showed me what the true meaning of what living is, and now I am desperate to make amends with my past. Please, we all make mistakes. I just happened to make a bigger one. Please accept my apology, there is nothing I would like more than you mend our relationship."I say all at once. I drop it like a bomb, letting all of my very strong emotions surge out. 

Liz starts to cry, and so does Casey who is admiring her handiwork in the background.  Then I begin to cry as well. It is one great big crying-fest. 

"I do." Is all Liz says. 

"You do?!" I say, sounding astonished. 

"Yes, how could I after that? You told me the truth, and put your reputation on the line just for a chance to speak with me again. If that doesn't show that you care for me, and regret every single mistake you made with Sarah and I, then what does? After all, you are right, you know. You did make a mistake, we all do, but yours was just a little worse than the normal one. I accept your apology." Liz sobs happy tears and hugs me.

I return the hug, crying tears of joy as well. Then I whisper, "Thank you, thank you, thank you so much! It means the world. And...is there any chance we can try to mend our broken relationship? Just as friends." I ask. There is nothing that I want more in this world I would give anything to see her face again. 

"I accept your apology, but I'm afraid that second part can't happen. I mean, I want to, so badly. But I just can't. I won't be able to handle it. Sarah looks so much like you, I would break internally. I'm so sorry Noah." Liz explains to me, and I know she is telling me the truth. 

"It's okay, I understand. If I were you I would have the same answer as well. Well...I guess this is goodbye then." I cry some more, this is sort of a bitter-sweet moment. "Just remember that I love you and I always will. And I never will stop loving you and Sarah, even if she is six feet underground. Don't you forget that. Promise?" I say, with a weak excuse for a smile on my face. 

"I promise." The next thing that happens is so surprising it leaves me dazed there for a long time. She kisses me. She kisses me harder and more passionately than I would have ever thought. When she releases the kiss we both stand their smiling. "Goodbye Noah." She says, and then walks away with her strut I am so very used to. 

I rush over to Casey and tackle her with the biggest hug she has ever seen. She did it, Casey did the impossible. She freed me of thee burdens. I love her, she has done something no other friend would have done. She really did it, she helped me right my wrong just as she said. For once in my life, I finally feel free.