The struggle

chapter 17

"Ms.King , I have to say little raya is a one of our smart student , she to smart for her age I'm very proud of her , Ms.Keli said which is raya teacher

"thank you very much , I make sure she do her work and study",I told her

"Yea you a very a good sister , but I really wanted to talk to your parents ..... I cut ms.Keli off

"Umhh our parents went out of town I'm watching raya and she is doing just fine I'm old enough to watch my sister ms.Keli "I said with a attitude

"Well ok , but raya has behavior I starting to change slowly the other day she called a student a bitch and slap her just cause the girl told her , her mother was fat and ugly , and the other day raya be coming to school itching and she told me she hate her life and starts kicking and throwing stuff . Raya doesn't get along with none of the students at all ! Is everything going ok at home ? Ms.keli said

I was shock , a lot of things was running thru my mind , I couldn't believe raya , she doesn't behave that way when we around each other , I wouldn't really pay her any attention since I had the job , I been leaving her at that stupid dirty house by herself while I be at work , oh my gosh I felt tears about to come out but I hold them in , I love my baby sister I wish she would've told me how she feeling , I hate my mother and I wish my father never left us but it's whatever . I had to think of something to tell this lady before she send people to get my sister from me

"excuse me Remi ? I need a answer "ms.keli said

"Oh sorry I was just shock about raya behavior , I'm sorry raya favorite pet dog jojo that our grandparents gave her when she turned 5 pasted away a few weeks ago ever since that day she been acting different , she don't want to eat no more , she don't even want to take a shower I have to force her , she don't like going outside no more , she just lock herself in her bedroom but I will talk to raya and most definitely tell my mother about her behavior ", I said

"Aww poor raya , I should've knew but I'm very sorry to hear that , I understand now , I hope raya feels better and get over it , cause I hate seeing her like this", ms.keli said

"Yea but thank you very much for informing about how raya is doing in school , just give her some time and she be back like she never left , nice meeting you Ms.Keli

So I went to get raya from the play area where I left her with her classmates . So raya what up with you ? I asked

"What you mean Remi ? Raya said

"Why you being a bad girl and calling people names " , I said

"Remi I don't mean to , the kids mess with me and always try yo bully me and calls my mom fat and ugly , my mom is not ugly or fat , she is beauti.... I cut raya off she was getting me mad bringing up a lady that don't exist in out life no more

"Raya be quiet what I told you ! I'm all you got ok , you have me and only me , you don't know nothing about a mother or father I told you don't let those kids get to you ! If anybody ask about your parents i told you to ignore them or just say they went out of town ! I told her

"Remi I'm tired of this and lying ! I want to see mom every night the lady that birth me you didn't birth me you are my sister not my MOTHER , you can't tell me what to do ! I hate living this way ! It's like we fucking poor , you mind as well call us poor , we have to get clean in the near by walamart or gas station I need a real shower not no damn bird bath ! I want to watch cartoons , I want to eat food when I feel like that not wait till you get your check ! I want to have the least clothes , shoes , I'm not a baby no more I'm a big girl ! Raya said with so much anger

Raya watch your mouth I didn't teach you those dirty words you using ! You are ungrateful I'm fucking trying , you think I like the life I'm living ? No I'm 17I'm suppose to be enjoying my damn life I'm about to graduate ! I'm suppose to be out with friends , have a boyfriend , hang out , go to the mall and party but no nobody wants to be with me nor do I have the time to do all that ! You know why raya cause I'm to busy raising you , trying to make things good for you , everything I have I give you it , I could've been those heart less sister and left you for dead or give you away to charity or something ! But no I love you to damn much and I promise grandma the day she pasted away after your stupid ass crackhead mother left us for dead that I will take good care of you and make sure you good ! What you said hurted me raya ! I never can get a thank you or I love you from my only friend my baby sister this what I get a fuck you Remi , !