Hybrid in Hiding// ON HOLD

2. New Friends

"Sweetheart it's time to wake up you have school pretty soon" my grandma says shaking me slightly. "I'm up" i said groggily. Once my grandma left I got dressed and brushed my teeth.

"I'm heading out, love you" I said to my grandma walking to the door. "Aren't you going to eat something?" My grandma said with worry in her tone. So after grabbing a banana I got in my car heading to school.
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I don't wanna be here

I don't want to face people today

I don't want them to ask about my parents

I don't want their fake sympathy

I don't want this

After about 10 minutes of contemplating going into that hell of a building I finally got out of my car. I walk into school trying not to make eye contact with anyone.
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I'm a junior in high school this year. My grandma offered to do homeschooling with me but at the time I just wanted to go back to normal life and try to push away the death of my parents.

I regret it now.

I regret my decision mostly because things have changed. I've been trying to accept the fact that I'll never see my parents.

But with acceptance I realized that my life is never going to be the same and that's what scared me the most.

So here I am.
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I walked into the office to get my schedule. I went up to the desk finding a fairly old lady. Her name tag read 'Mrs. Walters'. After getting my schedule Mrs. Walters had a student give me a tour of the school.

After about 5 minutes a girl who I suppose was giving me a tour walked through the door. "Hi! I'm Jessica. I'm here for your tour you can come with me"
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"Alright here's your first class. History my favorite" Jessica said sarcastically. "Thank you" I said chuckling.

"No problem if you need anything I'll be around and if you need someone to hang with seeing as your new, I can save you a spot at lunch" Jessica said. "That'd be great actually" I said relieved. "Sure thing see you then" Jessica said walking away.

Jessica seemed really sweet. I hope she wasn't offering to sit with me purely out of sympathy.
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Walking into Mr. Jackson's history class I found my seat and waited for class to start.

I sat in a seat by myself in the back corner. I kind of liked it. It's isolated and quiet. Kind of like me.

Ever since my parents passed I don't really make an effort to talk to people. It's not that I don't want to, I just don't feel that it's necessary.

If people want to talk to me they can make an effort.

I've learned that from the past.
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I sat with Jessica and her friend Rebecca at lunch. They seemed really nice. They also invited me to a sleepover they were having at Jessica's house on Friday. I think I'll go, I'm in desperate need of friends.

I wanted friends so I didn't seem like a loner. And it seems to me that Jessica's and Rebecca are very friendly.
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Jessica Karlson.

She seems different than other girls. She's not fake and she says it how it is. And I really admire that. I hope she likes me.

Most of my friendships didn't workout. Usually they were hiding things, being mean, or they moved away.
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Lexis Roberts

I met Lexis last summer. She kind of disappeared after my parents death. My parents death wasn't a cause of her disappearance. But I feel like her timing was horrible.