P.S. I Love You

Chapter 24- Second Chance

*Justin's POV*

I can't believe I was so close to committing suicide. What the hell is wrong with me? There are so many people who care about me. I know that! I should've known Autumn doesn't believe in abortion. She's always said everyone has a right to life, no matter the circumstances. I still don't understand why she left when she even told me she loves me too much to ever leave me.

I gently rub her tummy where our little miracle is growing as I watch her sleep. She looks so peaceful and innocent and so...beautiful. I hear her lightly giggle, which I think implies that I'm tickling her. Aww, my baby's ticklish. I smiled as she fluttered her eyes open and looked at me.

"Hey." She says in her adorable morning voice.

"Hi there, Sleeping Beauty." I say.

*Autumn's POV*

"Hi there, Sleeping Beauty." He says in a husky voice.

We both leaned it and kissed for about 10 minutes and we slowly pulled away. Justin started leaving a trail of kisses down my shoulder and arm. It started to tickle.

"Justin, stop, it tickles." I say.

"Never!" He shouted as he held onto my back for support.

"Please! Let me go!" I yelled.

"I'll never let you go." He whispered against my lips. "You're too precious to ever let go of."

He kissed me once again and pulled away to look at my tummy.

"Look at you." He whispered. "Look at you! A few months and you're already starting to show."

I started to get worried.

"Is that bad?" I asked concerned.

"Baby, no. It just means you're taking such good care of our child and look, she's not even born yet!" He says. I blushed.

"Thanks honey." I say as I kiss him on the cheek. There's a lot of kissing in this relationship.

"That reminds me, have you thought of any names?" He asked me.

"Gosh, I haven't really thought about it now that you mentioned it." I said.

Actually, the truth is, I have. I've actually already picked out a name I know Justin will love. I'm naming here after someone who's not only important to Justin, but to me as well and everyone who knows her.

"Oh, well, how about we spend the afternoon picking out a name and actually, I'm doing a twitcam later on and I was hoping you'd do it with me." He said.

"Are you sure we should start picking a name now? I mean, I'm still early. Oh, and sure, I'll do the twitcam with you." I say.

"Good, and it's not that I want to pick a name now, it's just that I want to get some ideas." He said.

"Okay." I say.

"Alright, why don't we get dressed, go to i Hop for some breakfast, then we'll get on the name picking, take a break for some lunch, then we'll do the twitcam for a while, and then I was gonna do a follow spree on twitter, and how about we finish the day by watching Titanic, and if it's still early, we can watch a few episodes of Friends." He said.

"Sounds good to me." I mocked him, remembering the first time we had sex.

As I was about to get up, I remembered something Justin said yesterday I still have a question about.

"Oh, wait, Justin?" I asked.

"Yes darling?" He said. I love it when he calls me darling.

"When you thought I was Ryan yesterday, when you were about to kill yourself, what did you mean by first Selena, then me?" I asked.

He layed back down on the bed and motioned me to scoot over next to him, which I did. He put his arms around me and put his hand on my tummy.

"This is a little hard to talk about, but after I slept with Selena, I found your note and I broke down. I had already felt guilty as it was but, just...knowing you're pregnant, with my baby, and thinking you had an abortion, it shattered my already broken heart. I yelled at Selena and told her to get out, and then she told me she was pregnant, but she had an abortion because she wasn't ready to be a mom and that she didn't want to have a baby with someone she doesn't love." He said as I saw a tear slip down his face. I kissed it away.

"Oh, honey." I comforted him as I rubbed his back. I felt awful leaving him. I started to cry too. "I'm so sorry, I didn't know." I said as the tears continued to fall down my face.

"Why are you crying?" He asked concerned.

"It just makes me feel so guilty that I left you." I sobbed.

"Honey, sweetheart, please stop crying, it's okay now, look at me." He says, and I look up at him, eye to eye.

"Baby, it's okay now, it's okay. Yes, I am still upset with Selena for aborting my baby without telling me, but I'm alright now, and you want to know why?" He asked. I nodded. "It's because now I have a second chance. God has given me a second chance." He said, rubbing my tummy. "Baby, I couldn't be more grateful for you and it's always the little things you do, like how you give me a kiss to wake up, all your imperfections that make you so imperfectly perfect, so...beautiful. I mean, we just had the best sex..excuse me, we just made the best love ever last night. I feel something with you I was never able to feel with Selena, so you know what? I don't care about her anymore. It's you I love. She's out of our lives now and that's all that matters. I have all I could ever want, right here. The girl of my dreams, a little baby girl on the way, and a house full of love. You and I can fill the biggest room in the world with our love. I love you, babygirl." He said.

"I love you too, honey." I said. We shared a very passionate kiss. We poured all our love and heart into that kiss. He stuck his tounge in my mouth and milked my tounge. We pulled away and stared into each other's eyes.

"Did you feel that?" He asked.

"I feel like I was just kissed by an angel." I said. He chuckled

"Am I your angel?" He asked smiling.

"Of course you are." I whispered and gave him a kiss.

"These emotions I feel for you, I was never able to feel for her." He said. We started a make out session until I felt something moving around in my belly, and Justin's hand was still on it.

"Hey, whatcha doing in there?" He asked. He scooted down my body and was eye level with my tummy.

"Whatcha doing in there babygirl? Whatcha doing?" He said in a baby voice while making funny blowing sounds on my tummy.

"Oh Justin, your so weird!" I said.

"What? I'm just having some fun. Come on, lets get dressed." He said.

We got up, and as I was walking over to my dresser, I had a blanket wrapped around me.

"Sweetheart, you don't have to feel self conscious, I've seen you naked more times than I've sang One Less Lonely Girl." He said. I blushed as he winked at me.

"Let me see that sexy body." He whispered seductively in my ear.

I let go of the blanket, letting it fall to the ground, exposing my bare, naked body. I can see the little bump in my belly where my daughter rests.

"There it is." He whispered. I felt him getting a boner in his pants.

"Um, honey?" I whispered while pointing to his bulge.

"Shit! I'll be right back." He said.

I got dressed and waited for Justin. After listening to him moan and groan for a while, he finally came out dressed in a white tank top and pants that nearly came down to his knees.

"Ready to go?" He asked.

"Yeah." I said laughing.

"You know, I bet you think about me when I'm not around." He mocked, and I blushed because he's right.

"That's what I thought, come on." He said and we left for i Hop.