P.S. I Love You

Chapter 41- A Long, Long Time Ago

*Autumn's POV*

   I was sleeping in bed with Justin's arms around me from behind. I heard my phone vibrate on the nightstand. I open my eyes and saw it was a text from Sophie. I opened the message and felt instantly embarrassed by what it said.

'Don't you guys ever take a break? Might want to knock it off with all the screaming! ;)'

    I blushed knowing she lives just down the street. I completely forgot about that. Gosh, are Justin and I really that loud? I snapped out of my thoughts when I heard a yawn behind me, followed by a soft kiss on the cheek.

"Babygirl, what are you doing up so early? It's only 4 in the morning." He said in a husky voice.

"Oh, sorry honey, my phone just went off. I got a text from Sophie." I explained as he left kisses up and down my left arm.

"Oh really? What'd she say?" He asked.

"That we should probably knock it off with all the screaming seeing as she lives down the street." I said.

Justin started to blush as he rubbed his hand up and down my arm, rubbing in the kisses.

  "Boy, I must fuck you real good for you to scream so loud you wake up someone from down the street." He said and we both laughed. "No, but seriously, I don't think I can ever stop making love to you or pretty much stop these love fests. I love you too much to ever stop. I hope that's okay."

   "That's fine, I love it when you make love to me." I said as we both shared a passionate kiss. "Besides, me coming from a Catholic background, I am going to want a big family, and I hope that's okay." I said.

   "Sweetheart, that's fine. Now look, I know I said before that I just wanted a handful of kids, but ever since we had Avalanna, I was so happy to have my first child, it just seemed so unreal. Now I know I want more kids and I for sure want you to be my wife." He pulled me closer and cradled me in his arms. "Honey, I can't wait for our wedding. I'm even more excited to call you Mrs. Bieber. Now I know we have so much sex in this relationship, but I do it because I don't want to lose you. I always want to show you how much I love you and how beautiful you are." He explained.

     "What do you mean Justin? You know you'll never lose me." I said.

    He sighed as if he has bad news or something.

      "Sometimes, I'm afraid of being like my dad." He said.

     "What do you mean?" I ask concered as if he doesn't have a good relationship with Jeremy.

       "I mean, don't get me wrong, I love my dad, we're like best friends. It's just that, when he was our age, well, a little younger, when he and my mom dated, there were quite a few times where he cheated on her. Once, my mom got back at him by sleeping with a close friend even though she said she wasn't a one night stand kind of girl, I still thought, you know 'good for you' but the sad thing is, even after I was born, he still cheated on her. It was only a couple times but I still can't help but wonder why he would ever do that to such an amazing woman." He planted a soft kiss on my lips, then continued. "That night I cheated on you with Selena, I felt just like my dad. I messed with your feelings and I knew better than that. When I found out you were pregnant and thought about having an abortion, it shattered my already broken heart. All I wanted was to have you safe in my arms. I was so worried about you." He said as he started to cry a little.

       "Baby, you don't have to worry about a thing. First off, I would never have an abortion, second, I love you so much I would never leave you. You are nothing like how your father was. Last, is your heart still broken?" I asked a little worried.