the dm

the flirt game

i was sitting on my phone when bryce came over to me

-you know you where allowed to look right-

-probably but i didn't-i said and turnt off my phone and smirked at him
He was starring at me for a couple a seconds when he took my hand
- what are you doing- I said and took my hand into myself
-sorry julie-he said and took his phone from the table
-babe come here- adym said I got up and walked to him
-yea baby-I said trying to kiss him
-umh it's time for you to switch home-he said with a angry look
I just turned around and walked to his room and began to pack my stuff when Bryce came in and gave me a little piece of paper with his number then he closed the door I got the number in my phone when I realized there where to I got the other one in Oslo and named it "unknown Bryce"and began to pack again i was kinda sad about the way adym acted it was like he was a whole another person I wasn't really sure why he was angry at me I've never seen him like this
I was done packing and I was waiting for adym to call me out I was scared if he would yell at me so I was sitting on my phone I wanted to know the number and who they where to
*hi who this*
*umhh who this*
*julie you know someone named bryce*
*are you a fan?*
*umh no I don't have any idea who you are he gave me your number*
*uh okay I'm Mikey Bryce friend*
*uh okay nice to meet you or what you say in this situation😆*
*yeah nice to meet you to😊 but gotta go talk to you later😏*
*yeah talk you later🙂*
I named it Mikey after that I new that the other number was bryces number so I just named Bryce right when I was done adym yelled my name I rushed out
-I'm here-I said low
-get to car-he said really mad like it made me scared
-y..yeah of.. of course-I said bryce was looking at me but I looked down I was scared so scared that I was about to cry he closed the door when he stopped me and pushed me up against the wall and kissed me
-julie I don't want this okay you deserve better-he said and we left to the car
-wait up stop you said that I deserve better I can't believe you right now adym seriously-I said almost yelling at him
-I'm sorry julie I just think that it's better if you find someone that is better for you-he said and walked away
-I can't believe you adym I loved you-I said angry but crying
-julie come on you are going to Ethan and Grayson - he said and made me walk
I don't understand it he just made me the little scared girl and now I'm the one that's mad I'm confused but maybe it's me I'm not good enough is this life soon gonna be over with all ive been true my life is a mess
Skip to the dolans house
I took my stuff and left the car I walked inside
-sup-I said they looked at me I forgot that i had cried and my mascara did ran they came over to me and asked
-are you okay-
-do I look okay-I said and left the company I got in my room and begin to take every single moment I had on my walls with adym picture frames was on the floor with glass I took my trash can and a lighter and began to burn it all when I was done burning it I walked out of my room
-I'm going out don't worrie about me I will call if something happens-I said and left I walked around in the town I took down to my house where I actually live I walked inside the house to see some blood coming from the bathroom I clearly reamember it Grayson saved me from it saved me from dying but I don't think if I try it again nobody will save me I don't really want to be in this world it obviously hate me for being here I wanted to kill myself but I didn't do it the only thing I got to make was a cut on my other i wanted to dye my hair so I did I had some different colors so I just picked one got in my hair waited 30 minutes and I took a shower and got some clothes on at the end it looked like this

I was happy with my new look I was sad about me and adyms breaking up I never thought myself without him of course I have been without him like before I met him but why now why can't I have a normal life I was beginning to think about why I wanted to keep being here but I thought I should text someone I could talk to my bestie Vic I texted her
*hey Vic do you have time to talk?*
*why would I ever have time to you are such a loser I don't believe I ever was bff with you*
*umh okay sorry*
I begin to cry I thought she was my bff what is happening to people now they all just hate me I texted Bryce
*are you still with adym and sawyer?*
*yea why*
*no reason talk to you later*
*yeah sure*
If mikey is like everybody else I don't know what to do anymore
*hey Mikey it's julie are you busy*
*umh nope why*
*can we meet I need someone to talk to and everybody else i kinda going behind my back right now 😔*
*hey what is you address I'm coming over*
I sent him my address and he came like faster then I thought 15 minutes then he was there
-welcome in-i said and made him go inside it was wierd to see him he was like seriously handsome like he was like someone that I had known for a really long time
We sat down on the couch and began to talk I showed him my cuts he begin to hug me when I was done I couldn't stop crying he was so helpful he was like the one and only but it was getting late we left the house and we said night he gave me a kiss on the cheek I just pretended he didn't do it I walked down to the Ethan and Grayson's house when I walked inside I found adym and sawyer in the house I got so mad that I just ran to my room I didn't care if they wanted to talk to me I took on some comfy short and a sweatshirt I walked out and took some food and walked to the tv they where sitting talking about how they are gonna do it with the weeks cause now I'm not with adym so I'm going there I just standard up and walked over to them
-maybe I should just move into my own home- I said and left the room lucked the door to my room I was so mad at all of them I just made myself go to sleep I didn't want to be awake I want to go to sleep now and never wake up