the dm

Maybe maybe not

It's been 3 days and I've not been out of my room all I have been doing is to look at my phone no food no sleep I've been in the shower but not that many minutes I couldn't stand to look at myself I'm a slut I texted my brother about an hour ago but the respond I got is something I never thought he would say to me
~stop texting me bitch I never liked you and btw you where adopted~
I never thought that about him it's like adym was the key to happiness me Grayson and Ethan have not talked in these days I decided to go out of my room I walked to the living room they where not home. They where at the where house I just watched some tv I turned on the tv to find the news a person was killed I just watched it cause there was nothing else to watch that person that got killed was my brother I just watched something else there where some cartoons I could watch but i really didnt want to watch it cause since i was little i was always scared of cartoons i always found them scary don't know why i've just always thougt that but that is not what matters my borther is dead and the only yhing he could say as the last thing was that i was a bitch and he wasn't my brother why is my life so complicated all the time

adyms pov

i really feel bad for breaking up with julie but i thougt about it i dont want to have a reolationship that is on a big lie i killed her parent to make her move here when i'm all done with julie i make her happy her brother i thougt i killed is possible alive and i cant live with a girl i got cause i killed her parents i can't i was out with my sister talking on the beach yesterday i looked to the side to see julie she was on her way to leave she probably thougt i've already moved on i never told her about my sister never my sister dont know i am a murder nobody knows and its better that way

julies pov

i was sitting on the couch just sitting when the door opens and in the door comes ethan and grayson

-omg julie where have you been-grayson came over to me and checked my body 

-in my room why-

-we have been looking after you the past tree days-he said

-are you sure about that-i said and looked him in the eyes he hugged me

-julie how can you be like this-he said

-how i dont know-i said and hugged him back-

-well we have a guest for you-ethan said at the door

it was bryce and mikey

-hey guys-i said and got up and hugged them ethan as the last person he hugged me tight they cared about me these four boys is what i have left everybody else have left me i'm the problem i  don't deserve to live i wasn't supposed to be alive after that murder that killed my family i really don't belong here anymore 

i walked to the couch and sat down i switched channel i was beginning to get creept out by those cartoons i was just sitting looking at some news the news about my brothers death he was hit by a car on a highway the boys began to look at me wierd

-what guys-i asked and turned off the tv

-did you know that person-bryce asked

-umh yeah its my brother or something an hour before i saw it in the news he gave me this text that says ~stop texting me bitch I never liked you and btw you where adopted~ so i dont know but yeah i knew him-

-it dosnt sound like your sad-mikey said

-i can't be more sad then i am-

-julie dont say that-ethan and grayson said

-for once cant i just say my feeling without getting judge on it i'm triyng to be honest with you guys and you say that i cant do it urhh-i got really mad i just walked to my room and slammed the door

-julie i we didnt mean it that way-grayson said

-i dont care i just need to find myself and its harder then you think-i got to say that and i fell alseep i understand why no sleep for 72 hours i donno how many hours i slept for but i got up and walked to the living room i was just laying on the couch looking around till i fell asleep again