Now Or Never

Chapter Four

Chapter 4 [Unedited] :

I screamed into my pillow, frustrated. This school was suffocating me! The staff was so goddamn nosy, it's not normal! WHY DO YOU CARE SO MUCH?! 

I went over my slightly awkward visit to the principal in my head. It was my first time meeting him, and it was a slightly confusing experience. He was so conflicted? He was definitely nicer than any other principal that I've dealt with.

*Flashback*

"Good evening, Ms.Cortez. How are you today?" Mr.Kingston asked, smiling courteously. I nodded, not smiling and not speaking. His smile faltered a tiny bit.

"I didn't expect you to answer. I was informed of your...unusual behavior. This is precisely what we are here to discuss." he said, speaking so softly it made me feel like he was talking to himself, not me. 

I nodded again, blinking twice as a form of acknowledgement. "Okay. You are not here to receive a punishment, or a warning of some sort. I just wanted to see you, because you've shaken the teachers. I shouldn't tell you this, but quite a few teachers are unnerved by your presence. I don't understand why, since you seem quite alright to me, but I suppose there is something daunting about a person who does not speak, but only watches you cautiously." he said, pausing to catch his breath, and possibly gauge my reaction.

I cracked a small smile, finding his rant amusing. I never looked at it that way. I guess I would be intimidated too. 

He grinned at me, catching my smile and he looked...satisfied? 

"See, I'm not that bad. And clearly, you aren't either. By that tiny smile you just flashed,  I am now confident that you are NOT psychotic." he declared, swinging his arms around with a dramatic flourish. 

I flashed a full blown smile, surprising myself, but not him. I didn't remember the last I smiled like that while I was sober and completely conscious. 

But come on, my teachers thought I was psychotic, you would smile too. I straightened my posture, waiting for him to continue. 

"See, now that I know you are not deranged, you are free to go. But first, I would like to inform you that we have a school counselor. And I would appreciate it very much if you attended the sessions we are setting up with him.The first one is customary, but the rest are optional." Mr.Kingston instructed, folding his hands on top of his desk. 

I winced and stared at the ground, feeling betrayed and irritated.

"Look, this is not a punishment. I am sure you act like this because of something that happened in the past, and I think our counselor can help you move past it. Just go to one session, it's this Monday at 8 o'clock, and if you want, you don't have to attend another session. But just give it a shot, okay? We want to help you, not hurt you." Mr.Kingston said, sounding so sincere that I had to believe him.

I sighed and nodded at him, and then swiftly exited the welcoming office.  

*Flashback Ends*

Yep, that was my amazing Saturday. Still, it was better than my Friday. I have a horrible, boring life. Blech, the lameness of it makes me want to kill myself. And one day, I was pretty sure I would. Because I was going insane, day by day.

A/N: Yo, what's up? I don't really like this chapter, but oh well. Each chapter takes time and effort, so votes and comments would be HIGHLY appreciated. I just want to know if I should continue, I guess. So yeah, you know the drill. Have an awesome day guys! First commenter gets this chapter dedicated to them!

- Mia :*