shadowstar should be like a movie or something - Nikki's Fourth Book of Shit

sorry for the angst

Title.

Let me explain a lot of shit, okay

I used to despise Austin, the boyfriend. I hated him. I didn't like him.

But we began to hang whenever we went to his house with my mom.

He grew on me.

A lot.

Now I don't have a father and usually don't see anyone as a father to me.

But Austin, blood or not, is my dad. I love him(as a dad I swear). And I'm scared to say this to him because I don't wanna ruin our close friendship.

I don't know how to say it to him, if I ever will.

It's like trying to come out as gay.

But it isn't.