shadowstar should be like a movie or something - Nikki's Fourth Book of Shit

Where I've Been (semi rant)

*talks about suicide run while you can ty it's angsty*

I haven't been on in weeks and I'm sorry, my life is just so fucked up at the moment and I honestly lost interest in everything...might as well explain now

Yesterday I almost tried committing suicide, and honestly I never realized how much my internet friends love me until then.

It wasn't my friends on Wattpad but it was my OTHER online friends, along with two irl friends.

I never truly realized that I was loved until I picked up that knife and sent my suicide letter to my best friend (and yeah...I kind of actually did it..it hurts still)

I started an uproar without even thinking because I was just so clouded with the thoughts.

What I'm trying to say here is

I love you guys. And I know that sometimes I can be a cold heartless bitch that no one likes, or antisocial and wanting to go home, or kind and sweet, or plain emotionless, but I love you guys still and I just wonder if you guys love me the way I am.

I won't be on for a while now...I need to get my life together.

Until then, mi amigas/amigos,

bye