My Journey To Find ME

13) The Wall Of Emotions

Is the want to know someone better wrong? Is it wrong when we want someone to break the wall of emotions that they hold deep down inside... not letting anyone see the true themselves?

Closeness is not measured by the physical intimacy or the extent of secrets that you share. I feel two people are close when they know each other to their soul. When two people show their true selves to each other, they show what they hold within themselves, the show the emotions that they let out only when they are alone...

Think about it, who can be happier than the person who shows what he is, who is not afraid to showcase his thought. But what holds us all is the wall of emotion, the fear of being judged, the fear of losing someone who you show the actual you. Never wondering that the other person might as well be holding a mine of emotions...

It feels bad when you willingly extend hand to let someone hold it and explore the actual you, when you want to know what they hold within and show them what you hold within... but they refuse to let out their true self again cause of the wall of emotions.

I don't know if it's just me seeking peace within myself by letting someone I love get an insight into me... I want this thing of letting someone into my thought grid to be mutual; they let me into theirs and I let them get into mine.

I feel so foolish of myself when I realize that the people whom I prioritize don't consider me worth being the same to them... I want to scream out to them,
"ANSWER ME! What is the use of holding your emotions by naming them 'personal'? My dear if you hold them back, you will always remain alone with them, I know you don't want people to empathize you, but showing concern to you is not always a result of empathy. I believe its LOVE"

When someone takes effort to bring your storm of thoughts to peaceful winds, believe me that someone loves you, longs for your peace.
Just believe in this game called destiny and set yourself free...
I'm sure you will find your much awaited peace when you know that there are people who love you in every way, no matter what your WERE, and you WILL BE... but only for what you ARE.