My Journey To Find ME

14) Who Am I?

At times I just wander within myself seeking answers to the questions I unknowingly always had...
Our brain is a very cunning and cruel part of our body. It knows which hormones to release, but it doesn't know when to stop. At this time I feel it's me, it's my brain creating thoughts that I don't want. So I'm my own enemy.
It's ME vs ME... all again!

At times I get so tired of fighting this world for making my place in this rat race. There are so many people around me, but is there anyone who would understand this clumsy teenager within me? Is there anyone out there who will help me out of this flood of thoughts?

How much so ever try to bring my mind and heart to peace I guess they both simply aren't meant to be at peace at the same time... It's just that I don't want to lose myself while creating 'ME' for the world...

Am I alone who wants to run away from everything and find 'myself' that I fear I might have left far behind. I want that 'ME' back who was carefree, he knew he could achieve whatever he wanted, he knew for him sky was the limit... BUT WHERE IS THAT ME?
Is he in that dark room whose door I shut cause I was afraid of losing this rat race... or may b, I didn't do it but the people around me did...

The very same people whom the world around me looks up to, unaware of the fact that these people whom they idealize are the real foxes under sheep's skin, but here they have different motives. They only know how to suppress someone's confidence, rip them of their dignity by exploiting their weakness, by peeling off the healing skin over their injuries of inferiority complexes...

My mind makes me want to scream out to those bastards, "JUST GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE! You think you can suppress this hunger for success within me by what you think is your superpower, being able to exploit someone's weaknesses isn't a superpower... rather it just adds fuel to the fire within me. You think you have robbed me off my confidence by showing me that I'm inferior, then just remember, how much so ever you try, at the end of the day I know what I am capable of, I know that ' I will win... may be not immediately, BUT DEFINITELY '. I know that the fire within me is still burning and it is not long when it comes out fiercely enough that you will be burnt to ashes... I know that the 'ME' that I thought I've left behind is just hiding somewhere in me, and I am going to find that 'ME' back real soon.
You might know my weaknesses but you have no idea of my strengths. Soon when I unleash the beast within me, you will be thrown off this rat race and by the time you are back to your senses, I will have already won the race...

Yes, I'm the one you underestimated; I'm the one you thought was never your competition...
But now you also know that;
I'm the one you can only dream of becoming. If confidence is water, I'm the ocean. I'm the one with this never quenching huger for success.
Cause you know,

I'M SIMPLY - 'ME'

'Be who you are & say what you feel,
cuz those who mind don't matter &
those who matter don't mind'