Bex T-K x Reader Imagines

Side Effects

"Why do you do that?" You asked Bex as you took a seat next to her on the sidewalk.

"Do what?" She asked, not bothering to look at you. She had just ran out of your house after you has kissed her. She was definitely into you, as she had said so herself, but she never quite fully let you in. You were always on the fence with her, and it worried you.

"Run. You're always running and I don't mean literally. You won't let me in, and I don't know why. I'm not mad, because I know you have a reason, but if you don't ever let me in we aren't going to go anywhere." You explained and she let out a heavy sigh as she ran a hand through her hair.

"It's not you, trust me. It's me. I have a hard time letting people in, at least relationship wise." She replied.

"Why?" You asked but she remained silent. You sighed. You had known Bex for about half of a year, but only began to develop feelings about a month ago. Not to mention she had been in a relationship up until 3 months ago.

"I... It's hard for me to talk about." She finally said and you nodded.

"I get that, I do. But you can trust me, you know that right?" You asked and she seemed to tense up at those words.

"I want to Y/N, I really do." She said.

"But you don't..." You muttered and she looked at you. You looked into her eyes to see hurt and betrayal, and it broke your heart.

"More like I can't. I won't allow myself to." She corrected you. You furrowed your brows.

"Bex... If you don't let me in I can't help you. Obviously something happened to give you these trust issues and I want to help you. You'll never be able to get past this if you don't try again and let someone in again." You said and her eyes teared up before she looked back down at her feet. It was silent for several moments before she spoke again.

"I want to trust you, I do, it's just... The last time I let someone in, she destroyed me. I gave her everything and she broke me. I trusted her, and she took advantage of that and hurt me." Audrey spoke quietly, her voice shaking.

"I would never do that to you." You said and Bex scoffed.

"That's exactly what she said..." Because whispered. You sighed and ran a hand through your hair.

"But I'm not her. Please, let me prove that to you." You said and she sniffed, very clearly trying to keep herself from crying.

"It was Haley, my ex." Bex began, finally opening up to you.

"You don't have to tell me anything you don't want to." You said quickly, assuring her that even if she didn't talk you'd be here. She nodded, but continued anyways.

"I was with her for over a year. The first 4 to 5 months were great. She was the love of my life. But after that she just became a stranger. She..." Bex trailed off, obviously struggling to talk about this. You took this time to slowly entangle your hand with hers. She looked at your hand before grabbing it and giving it a squeeze, which you returned. "She abused me. Both physically and verbally. She would hit me, call me names, tell me she was way to good for me and the like. I never did anything though because I loved her. And when she was happy it was great. Some of the best moments of my life." Bex stopped for a minute as a few tears ran down her cheeks. You rubbed her hand with your thumb in an attempt to comfort her.

"I'm so sorry..." You said and she let out a sigh. It all made sense now; why she was so reserved had trust issues.

"It took me too long to realize I was hurting more than I was happy. And now, it's permanently hurt me. I ruin good things for me because of her. I push people away because I'm so fucking terrified they'll hurt me like she did..." Because explained and your heart was aching for her.

"She would say she loved me, and I believed her. I wanted to believe her." She began to cry, her body shaking with each sob. You wrapped your arm around her and gently pulled her into you. She fell without hesitation, curling up into you. "I-I still wake up scared sometimes... Dreaming about... about those violent times." She cried and you rubbed her arm.

"It's okay B, you're safe here." You whispered as she sniffed and wiped at her eyes.

"That's w-why I'm so protective about people I l-let inside..." At this point you had begun to cry yourself. You had no idea and the thought of her dealing with so much pain hurt you.

"I'm sorry Y/N... I'm so sorry. I wish I could be... be normal. But instead I, I'm fucked up." She sobbed and you shushed her.

"You have nothing to apologize for." You breathed out, trying to keep your own tears in.

"It's not fair to you." She said and you squeezed her tighter.

"No no, this isn't fair to you. You should have never had to go through that." You whispered. After that she went silent save for her sobs but you held her the whole time. You hoped she would trust you enough so you could show her what it felt like to truly be treated right. You just wanted to show her the love she never got.

"I like you Y/N. A lot. And you've already proved your different. I want to give you a chance and I'm going to try but please... be patient with me. Don't leave me because I can't let you in right away. I might have been able to leave her but I still live with the side effects so please..." She cried and you kissed the top of her head.

"I'm not going anywhere... I promise." You whispered as you held her. And you would stand by your promise forever.

Woah, this imagine was a little darker than the rest, and definitely more emotional but I hope you enjoyed regardless

I got inspired to write this from Mariah Carey's song Side Effects. I would check it out cuz it's a great song

As always thank you for reading and if you have any suggestions please let me know

Thank you!

~Echo