Wild [multiship & a mess]

4.0

Pbeeb: I screwed up big time

Djelly: given your daily life experiences, you're going to need to be way more specific

Tyler!: ^

Pbeeb: let me live

Josh!: what'd u do this time

Pbeeb: nothing

Pbeeb: I did. nothing. 

Ptrick: ???

Pbeeb: it's been like 2 weeks since and I've only been to my kitchen, my bedroom, the bathroom, and the living room

Pbeeb: my step counter says I have like less than a hundred steps each day

Pbeeb: yesterday it was like

Pbeeb: 12 steps

Pbeeb: I don't have motivation to do anything

Pte: this is a BAD time but relatable

Ptrick: how do you feel right now

Pbeeb: if I stopped breathing at this second I wouldn't be complaining

Josh!: hey now don't say that

Pbeeb: u asked me how I felt & I told u

Pbeeb: "hey do ya want a dog" "hell yeah" "lol we aren't getting a dog why would u even think that"

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Josh!: in a chat without Brendon, I am sincerely worried about Brendon.

Djelly: me too

Tyler!: idk if he's falling back into old habits

Ptrick: I hope not??? He like just quit with that. & it took a lot I don't want to go through that again

Djelly: I believe I am missing an important piece of the puzzle.

Ptrick: he was diagnosed with depression a while ago & he kinda bounced back after a while with help from medication but we've been worried he'd fall down the rabbit hole again

Pte: like it was bad

Josh!: he didn't leave his bed for days on end because he couldn't find a good reason to roll over

Tyler!: he went dead silent for like three months straight because he couldn't find any good reasons to speak. so he just. didn't speak. at all. because in his mind it was pointless and nobody could change his mind for a while

Tyler!: his therapist was not having it she like cried

Josh!: relatable

Djelly: did anything happen to him to cause it ?? That is horrible :(

Ptrick: I dont think so. He just got really sad and never got happy for a while.

Ptrick: and then he was already really anxious and paranoid which made it worse bc those things get like........ heightened.

Pte: like Tyler kinda said he went to therapy & everything for it

Tyler!: he was okay after a few months into sophomore year but yknow

Djelly: I feel bad now

Djelly: my heart hurts

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Djelly: heyyyy Brendon !!!

Pbeeb: hm

Djelly: do you want to go to the beach ?

Djelly: I asked your mom and she thought it would be a good idea. She said you love the beach !!

Pbeeb: i don't have sunscreen

Djelly: I bought some the other day !!!!! And sunglasses too !!!!!!!!! The sunglasses have tiger stripes on the side.

Djelly: I also found a big circle towel that looks like a watermelon. It was on sale and it is very soft. I think you would like it. It's good for naps, tested and confirmed by my dog who is hypoallergenic so you're safe.

Pbeeb: I would go but I have to help with cleaning

Djelly: your mom said the house is spotless

Djelly: I'm sorry. I asked her. She wants me to get you out of the house.

Djelly: do you really not want to go to the beach ? We can go to Walmart ? Maybe a tiny supermarket. You can sit in the cart and I will push you.

Pbeeb: I don't feel like going anywhere

Pbeeb: my legs hurt and I'm tired

Djelly: I will carry you !

Djelly: and I will watch out to make sure you don't get hit by a beach ball if you take a nap at the beach

Pbeeb: what if I nap the whole time? I don't want to bore you.

Djelly: the sand is nice. I am good at building sandcastles. I can tan. I think.

Pbeeb: what about shade

Djelly: your mom offered up an umbrella and a couple towels. Also a wagon I believe you haven't used for a long time which is okay because you can still fit if we try because you are very tiny

Pbeeb: you're adamant about getting me to the beach

Djelly: we can get ice cream !

Pbeeb: it's too expensive

Djelly: it is like five whole dollars for a big scoop nobody can finish. It made me sick last time I ate so much.

Pbeeb: I don't want to annoy you

Djelly: ??? I ???? Wouldn't ?????? Be ??????? Asking ????????? You ???????????????

Pbeeb: u can't see me but I shrugged

Djelly: >:|

Djelly: I am picking you up at 8 in the morning tomorrow and even if you are wearing no shirt and pajama pants I am still carrying you to the beach whether you like it or not.

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Djelly: I am taking him to the beach

Pte: how did u get him to agree to that ???!!?!!!

Djelly: I said

Djelly: Brendon

Djelly: I am going to pick you up at ten tomorrow and I am carrying you to the beach even if you are only wearing pajama bottoms

Ptrick: huh

Tyler!: let's just have Dallon do everything

Djelly: does he not usually sigh and say fine

Josh!: he like doesn't speak at all messaging or not

Tyler!: he doesn't have any of it

Djelly: >:|