Chasing Cameron

09

Munich, Germany

We arrived at our venue and it was also kind of small. I was so stressed just thinking about the problems that were waiting to happen. The show and the meet and greet were going to be an absolute nightmare.

I sighed and ran my hands through my hair. "You seem a bit stressed sweetie, is everything alright?" Becky asked me. Becky is literally like a mom to me and to everyone that's touring. She's great and I love her. It took me a second to answer. I laughed a little before answering. "I know what I signed up for when I agreed to come on tour but this is all getting wildly out of hand."

"You're telling me." Blake said when he stopped next to me. "It'll all get better in the end." Becky said and gave me a hug and I smiled.

For me the day sort of dragged before the show started. I think it was just my mood. I just know something is going to happen. Something always does.

I had my make up done like usual and I wore a white t-shirt that was plain in the front but on the back it said "Dallas" and under it was "94" and I rolled the sleeves up. I also wore a pair of ripped jeans that I rolled up to my ankles and and I wore my white vans.

I was waiting backstage for the show to start and I see Aaron run in with his pants hanging on his ankles and my eyes widen but I immediately started laughing. "Aaron pull your pants up!" I yelled and he started to laugh and he pulled his pants up. "Aaron!" Cam yelled and started dying.

"Hey babe, did I tell you my shirts look good on you?" He asked and I made a few poses and he started laughing. "Work it babe!"

Cam started talking to the fans through the mic and then they all ran out on stage.

•

The show actually ran very smoothly. A lot better than I was thinking. Whatever Bart did to fix this situation it actually worked. It was great, despite Taylor's absence.

"Hey Mads? Can I talk to you for a second?" Cameron asked and I walked over to him. "What's up?" I asked him. "I love you and thank you for everything that you do." Cam said and my heart melted. I smiled and gave him a hug. "I love you too." I said and pecked his lips.

Milan, Italy

"Do you remember what happened the last time you were here?" I asked Cam when we stepped out of the bus. "Yeah. It was insane. I shut it down." He said. "By one tweet." Our conversation was interrupted by a couple of fans that came to see us. Cam and I waved to them and walked to our hotel.

"Don't you have a fitting for the Dolce and Gabbana fashion show today?" I asked. "Uh yes I do, you can stay and watch the show." He wiggles his eyebrows up and down and I giggled and pushed him slightly. "I'm good. I think I just want some time to myself for a bit." I said and he looked a little worried. "Is everything okay?" He asked. "Yeah, it's just with everything that's been going on I would love to just take a break for a second."

We got to the hotel and right before the hotel doors they have a couple of tables and couches that you can sit at, like a patio kind of thing, I think I might just chill here.

We checked into our rooms and soon enough Cam's appointment for his fitting was happening and I stepped out and went downstairs to get some air outside. When I got out there there were fans crowding the entrance and when I walked outside they started to scream a little and started taking pictures of me. I was honestly shocked. What if we wanted to leave?

I knew I wasn't going to get the time I wanted out here so I just went into the hotel lobby and sat on a couch. This is so insane. There are girls surrounding the entrance to the hotel. I ran my hands through my hair and relaxed a little bit before the chaos actually happens.

•

We all wanted to go out and explore a little bit of Milan because it was our day off and we didn't have a show today. But the problem is is that we don't have security and there are still girls surrounding the hotel. I don't know how we're going to leave.

"This is crazy." Cameron mumbled from beside me and I intertwined my hand with his and I felt him relax a little. "I know." I spoke softly.

We decided to go out anyways.

Bart came back with what looked like people that worked here and they were going to help us. We were going out one by one and Cam went first. Multiple "guards" were around Cameron but he was still being pulled on and they were all being shoved a little. More guards came to help and I was next to go. Even I was getting tugged and phones were being thrown in my face. I said hi to people and I smiled at all of the cameras but on the inside I felt like I was suffocating.

I can't explain this in any other words except suffocating. Phones were being thrown in my face and fans were crowding in on us and I thought I was going to lose it and have a panic attack. I forced myself to keep that down and just keep walking and eventually I got to the car. When I sat down I put my hair into a high ponytail and let myself relax.

I got into the same car as Cam and fans were reaching their hands through the windows and they started to body up with the car and I didn't want them to get hurt. Cam tried telling them to move but some of them wouldn't listen and still kept reaching for him. The car started to move slowly and I was praying that none of them got hurt. But when it picked up its pace I started to feel better.

"I've never had anyone push me like that, getting through that crowd. They're pushing and pulling and yanking my arm. That was crazy." Becky said and I felt my hands started to shake a little just thinking about it. "I know." I mumbled and started playing with my fingers trying to relax myself.

We arrived at a mall and we got out of the car and immediately were surrounded by fans. I could barely walk.

"This is ridiculous." I latched onto Cameron's hand as we were being shoved and he squeezed my hand and never let go. "I just want to have fun." Cameron said and I felt bad for him. It was our day off.

We ended up deciding to just go back to the hotel because we literally couldn't do anything. We were being ambushed by fans and shoved and tugged so we just decided to go back. We got into the car and it was me, Cam, and Willie.

"This is crazy." Willie said. "Bruh I don't even know what to think of it to be honest." Cam said and I looked out the window and looked at all the fans. I felt my eyes start to water a little just thinking about what happened today. Being pushed and pulled and I thought that right then and there I was going to have a panic attack.

I put my hair into a high ponytail and started to drum on my legs. "Maddie are you okay?" Cameron asked. "Mhm" I responded and he looked into my eyes and saw they were watering. "No you're not. What's wrong?" He asked and I shook my head. "Nothing Cam, can we just let this one go?" I asked and my hands started to shake a little but I kept drumming so I didn't show it.

"Maddison" he said, "Cameron" I responded in the same tone. "I'm fine. Can we just leave it alone please?" I asked annoyed. "Fine" he shrugged and sat back in his seat. If I wasn't going to have panic attack today it's going to happen soon.