Unforgettable Woman || Kim Seokjin √

Chapter 30 - Crossing the line

»Your POV«

"(Y/N) do you think something is off?"

Yasmin was sitting on my bed eating the scraps from last nights popcorn which I ate in order to stop crying.

"What do you mean?"

I was hugging my pillow as I laid here. Probably almost dying.

"I mean Jin's attitude doesn't match what Yoonie keeps saying."

I continued to hug my pillow and memories of all that Yoonie have told me resurfaced and the pain continued to inch inside me.

"As I think about it Jin would never say that. He is too kind to say that."

Yasmin twirled her popcorn smelling fingers into her hair as she set aside the popcorn container.

"I asked someone and that person said that Jin isn't like that. He would never say that to anyone."

I thought about hearing Jin say that in person.

"I don't know Yasmin. There were a lot of things I thought Jin couldn't say."

I sighed.

"I thought he couldn't say them but he said them straight to my face."

I thought about what he said like 'we're not real'. That phrase hit me the most. I never could've imagine Jin having to say that but it was the truth anyway.

"I think I need to take a walk."

I decided to get up and leave Yasmin there as I got my coat and walked out the door.

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I sat on a chair opposite to the park as I watched everyone who was within my view.

Children running around. Some on the slide and some on the swing and some just running around everywhere.

Couples were walking around holding hands and laughing together. They looked so happy.

I decided to walk a little cause my butt felt strained from all the sitting and lying I've been doing the past few days.

I walked eyes still glued to the park and the scenery that came with it.

Right now I felt okay with thinking about Jin. I was thinking about him all the time anyway. I didn't care if it hurts I just really want to see him even if it's just in my mind.

Then I saw a guy who resembled Jin.

Tall, fluffy hair, Jin's fashion sense.

I thought it was just a coincidence since I was a little far away.

The guy was kissing a girl and I imagined how happy they must be together.

I smiled from ear to ear but then it faded when the two broke the kiss.

Suddenly tears started falling as I realized it wasn't just someone who resembled Jin but it was Jin...

Kissing Yoonie.

Seeing it in pictures was torture but seeing it in real life crossed the line.

I ran and ran and I literally didn't care to where I just ran.

Tears kept falling and rain started to pour down.

I decided to get some shade under a store.

People started to come together because they recognized me and I realized that I was crying and this would truly be tomorrow's headliner.

I wiped my tears and covered my face.

My mascara begun mixing with my tears and my makeup was smudged all over and it made it obvious that I was crying.

More people came closer and I buried my face into my coat.

"OMO it's (Y/N)"

"Is that really her?"

"She looks so much prettier in person."

"She's crying."

"Why is she crying?"

People started to come closer and I suddenly feel suffocated.

I needed to get out but I don't know how.

"Everyone please give us some space. I think she needs some time to cool off. Thank you so much for your concern and cooperation"

I heard a soft calming and feminine voice I was almost too familiar with.

"Yasmin."

Yasmin came closer and placed a hat on my head as she wiped my face with tissue.

"How did you know I'm here?"

People started to give space and I felt relived instantly.

"Well I know my cousin all to well so I followed you here."

She finished cleaning up my makeup and helped me stand up and got me into the car past a crowd that formed.

*****
"Are you sure about your decision?"

Yasmin was looking at me as she begun crying as well.

I told her that there was only one way to stop my suffering.

I needed to quit the kpop industry.

I know it would hurt at the start but as long as I wouldn't have to be reminded of Jin everywhere I go.

"Yes I am. I'm really sorry Yasmin."

I hugged her as we both cried.

"Well I hope it'll help you be happy."

You could hear the pain she was feeling through her words.

"I'll tell pd-nim tomorrow."

I cried as I hugged her.

I'd miss my cousin.

Going back to my country would mean I wouldn't be able to see my cousin for a long time.

We continued to cry.

We ended the night in each others arms.

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A/N

This is a really sad chapter and as you can tell my book is coming to an end.