No one knows for sure what heaven looks like. No one has lived to tell about it. You hear those amazing stories and see those movies like "Heaven is for real". I really want to see that because it looks and sounds so good. But I don't truly think that little boy died. I don't think you truly die until you get to heaven.
I do believe that you can hear God's voice. When in time of need or great struggle, you can hear it. I also believe you can see angles.
It's a scary thing to be writing. And it's pretty late. Will it be a ghost like angle and I'll freak or will it be comforting and I'll be relieved. That'd be nice.
The hardest thing to do is to fully trust God. I want to be able to put all my trust in him. To just fully step on that loose rock and expect God to hold me up. That would be so amazing. Just to have no fear. Cross the highway, closed eyes, at rush hour and expect God not to let me get hit. I try to put all my trust in him, but for some reason, I can't. I don't know what's holding me back. The devil? Reality? Do I not fully believe? I know with all my heart that God is here, present. But why can't I put all my weight on him? Should he have to prove to me that he's real? Put me through a life- changing situation? God has already shown me stories through other people that just make me sit back and say "Wow. God is real. This is real. This has happened." A complete moment of awe.
So why can't we put all our faith into a God that is so powerful? Please, let me no how so I can be me closer and more like him.
Amen
