scared of being alone (camren)

Why did you leave

I decided to go to Camila's house and wait out side. I'm starting to regret it because it's pouring and I'm drenching wet.

I've been waiting for a few hours and Camila still hasn't noticed.

I hear the door to the front unlock. "Lauren?"

I turn around and see Camila with puffy red eyes that let me know she's been crying. "What the hell are you doing out here your gonna get sick hurry up and come inside".

I turn around "no" she gives me a questioned look "what do you mean no do you want to get sick".

"Camz you ran away when I was in the middle of talking to you why"

"Lauren come inside" she says "no not until you tell me" she looks at me hurt. "Maybe because I didn't feel like getting rejected after I told you about my feelings maybe- "Camila" I say trying to cut her off. "Or maybe- "Camila" I say a second time.

"Let me finish and maybe-" I cut her off bye smashing our lips together. It took her by surprise but once she notices what's going on she starts to kiss me back. It was a slow gentle kiss not a rough kiss. She wraps her arms around my waist and I wrap my arms around her neck. After a few minutes we pull away breathless.

She looks at me her arms still wrapped around my waist. "What was that for" she ask a tiny smile appearing on her lips.

"You wouldn't let me talk" I look at her "Camila I have had my eyes on you for a while you're beautiful, cute and let not mention one of the smartest people I know. I have had the biggest crush on you since I first saw you I know that your scared but I'm scared to. you never let me make you laugh or smile and I really love it when you both of those things. Camz I could stay here and talk about how I have had the biggest crush in the world on you for hours but I'm going to cut it short. Karla Camila Cabello Estrabao I love you and it may seem so crazy and stupid but-"

"I love you to Lauren"

"What"

"I love you to"

By now I have the biggest smile on my face "you do" she smiles a genuine smile "yeah yeah I do"

"Camila will you be my girlfriend" she goes from smiling to looking like her dog just died.

"I can't"

"What why not you just told me that you love me"

"Laur it's complicated"

"What's so complicated I love you and you love me what's complicated"

"Well for starters how about my dad hates that I'm gay and it's one of the reasons I get beat by him or maybe the fact that no one in school will like me if I go out with you or just the simple fact that you could do better" she's so insecure but how could someone so beautiful be so insecure.

"Camz I don't care about what anyone in school thinks about us and I would never find someone better not even if I tried your an amazing person no matter how much you cover it up. I love you I'm in love with you and only you and your dad we can do something about that call the cops just do something"

"I'm sorry Lauren there's one other big secret that I just can't take seeing someone else leave because of it" she starts to walk thirds her door not to mention the fact that when we kissed I pulled her out of her house to so now she's drenching we I know cliché right.

"Camz come on" she steps inside her house and turns around".

"No laur I can't I'm sorry but for what it's worth I love you more than anything in this word". She closes the door.

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I get home and lay down on my bed on the bright side she feels the same in the other hand she can't date me you know what I have waited to long for her to tell me she loves me. I'm not letting you go Cabello not today not yet not after what you just said I just need a plan to get rid of all the problems in the way of me getting my girl.