scared of being alone (camren)

What now

"C-camz di-did you just" I ask pointing at the body.

She starts to cry hysterically. I just stand there with a blank expression.

What have we just gotten our selves into.

Camila's P.O.V

"I-is he" Lauren looks at me and walks up to the now limp body on the floor. She checks his pulse.

"Y-yeah he's umm..." she can't even finish her sentence.

"Laur can you look at me please" I go to try and comfort her but she flinches. When she finally looks at me I can see fear in her eyes.

She's...she's scared of..of me. I start to break down.

Soon enough the police came turns out someone heard and saw everything that happened and explained that what happened was just self defense.

***

After the police and ambulance and everyone left I saw Lauren just sitting there totally out of it.

I walk up to where she's sitting and sit right next to her "Babe can you please just...just say something anything please"

I say with pleading eyes and my voice cracking a bit.

"He's...he's dead camz how are you not hurt he's your father" wait hold on rewind.

"What" I say starting to get a little upset that she thinks this isn't hurting me.

"Wait wait wait wait wait did you not see me crying hysterically right next to you hu I killed someone and not just anyone I killed my own father do you know how hard that is on me I killed the man that helped birth me took care of me clothed me until he became someone new. I may not have showed it but I loved him because before he became who he is... I mean was her was the most amazing person ever we took care of me and cared about me and you think that this doesn't hurt"

I'm now crying once again. She looks at me but I can still see the shock In her eyes from what happened just a few short hours ago.

"Camz I have to go"

"W-what your just gonna leave me like that because of what happened" even more tears are now streaming out of my eyes like a constant waterfall.

"I just...just let me go home and just proses what happened please camz I love you I really do but this is a lot to take in".

"Just go then go and run away from this but just know if you really did love me you wouldn't be doing this right now."

"Go Lauren just go" she tries to give me a hug but I push her off.

"Camz"

"No your the one that wanted to leave right go home and think this over do whatever you have to but just know now that everything you said about loving me I know it's a lie now"

"No it wasn't a lie but camz you just killed someone-"

"TO SAVE YOU TO SAVE YOUR LIFE IF YOU WOULD HAVE DIED ALL OF ME WOULD HAVE DIED WITH YOU" my voice got very pound and I'm pretty sure the whole neighborhood heard me.

"I would rather him die over you anytime"

"Camz I love you please just give me time" she says wth pleading eyes.

"I'm not waiting forever until you get your shit together there is no us were done got your priorities straight Lauren".

Walking away I feel her eyes staring at me as if they where lasers and if she stared to long I would have a whole in my head.

"CAMZ WAIT PLEASE" I hear her yell her footsteps being heard behind me.

She catches up to me and grabs my wrist. "Don't go please I can't lose you I love you your the love of my life please don't end this don't end us"

"You wanted time to wrap your head around things then go don't come back until you know what you want for sure".

Ripping my wrist from her hand I walk back into my house I hear her gentle sobs behind me.

I want nothing more than to just run up to her and embrace her into a big hug and tell her everything's going to be ok but I can't she wants time away time away she shall get.

I close my door to my room and cry for hours until I finally drift into a peaceful sleep with nothing on my mind but Lauren and my father

A/n hiiiiii it's been a while hasn't it so a lot of you have been wanting this update so here it is love y'all ❤️💓 some much and thank you for so many reads